Saturday, August 30, 2014
I go out of my room
and I run into my dad. I didn't say I wanted him to send me secret messages. He's done this since moving to Orlando and the N word thing with Tim Burton's daughter.
Problem
I go online, and it's not like I feel anyone's really met me. They know me from before and toss me and my feelings of posting online and getting attention at all.
No one listens, neither. It's a very fake experience. Day in and out, I face issues.
No one listens, neither. It's a very fake experience. Day in and out, I face issues.
I know what goes on.
It gets fooled around with, like other things. ("Maybe, maybe not.") So, it seems that people don't want us to talk about these things in a lying way to make us feel guilty and pretend we're the 1 who's shit since Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. I'm not a California immigrant sorta person. It's not like 1 big block of stuff is true means everything else is pretended to be case closed. That's just a trick, really. Things require and can intune explanation. It does happen with other things, too. Why can't you acknowledge the stuff that you do, for a lot is done? It feels I've always been thinking about it. I've come to say something. I didn't say anything other than making a big deal of what I said in my last post. I just want to talk about it. I'm not saying anyone needs to talk back. I must have some motive. A lotta people are strangely scared of what I did in my last post.
Do you wanna finish talking about something?
Why in the late 1990s did people suddenly all turn on one another and feel guilty?
I said, "Oh no," when my dad came home several days in a row, until I was told to stop. It was sorta automatic, seemed like it made sense, my homework was not done. Also, my dad was kinda mushy as a person. You can't make a big deal out of it.
This message does not go out to people who don't wanna talk. Like, who claim not to deal with such things..
I said, "Oh no," when my dad came home several days in a row, until I was told to stop. It was sorta automatic, seemed like it made sense, my homework was not done. Also, my dad was kinda mushy as a person. You can't make a big deal out of it.
This message does not go out to people who don't wanna talk. Like, who claim not to deal with such things..
Wednesday, August 27, 2014
How Else It Started
If a bad idea even to do with someone else came to my mind I would be in trouble.
I don't think any of this could matter if this doesn't, unless things are different here.
I dunno! I don't even know what I just said and it's about time to eat what I just cooked.
I don't think any of this could matter if this doesn't, unless things are different here.
I dunno! I don't even know what I just said and it's about time to eat what I just cooked.
Tuesday, August 26, 2014
Monday, August 25, 2014
Maybe I should stop
saying *beep* - I dunno. Maybe. It seems to mean a curse word and when against another.
Problem
My life? Where'd it go? Tim Burton did it, too. Well, .. maybe I'm imagining things there? Why am I not as great as people said I was?
Some people just mess up. I can lead my own life.
Some people just mess up. I can lead my own life.
What was that?
I just got some really torturous message about my future son, like a torturing feeling?
Problem
Someone in the experiment or Ellen is messing with my computer now. My Favorites on Twitter were not working. That's illegal.
Problem
Sometimes, my dad sends me to bed with a feeling of him and I don't like it and think he's just mad at me..
Um, no.
No one treats me like I am succomed to them. Why do people treat Ellen like that.. you know what I was always treated better.
I mean, like, yes your majesty you can hurt me. I really didn't do anything, so what if you did.
I mean, like, yes your majesty you can hurt me. I really didn't do anything, so what if you did.
Problem
Will you just quit?
They told me they won't and don't do something when I was having a good time at it.
They told me they won't and don't do something when I was having a good time at it.
I'm so sorry about this 1.
I just wanna get it over with and forget to think. I'm new to this. I sense a bad start to my Ellen season.
Problem
WHY YOU TALKING TO ME ABOUT OPRAH I LIKE HER BUT I KNOW WHY YOU SAID THAT YOU JUST LAUGHED LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE!
More
12 hours in advance, some post.. like I have to follow that nonsensical poster
I don't need this. I'm not paying you back.
I don't need this. I'm not paying you back.
Problem
I got another insulting post that makes no sense, no relationship left cuz I won't act like I'm bad?
Someone splurted out, "I'm not carrying," which means and seems to mean something about toes.. Ew, something in a bad way.
I feel an attack as I post it.
Someone splurted out, "I'm not carrying," which means and seems to mean something about toes.. Ew, something in a bad way.
I feel an attack as I post it.
I mean
if something happens, I sit here, and Ellen has done things just because I don't agree with being punished. You're a sicko who thinks my dad is shit and that I like being shit in the same way.
Nothing wrong with using the word sicko. It's sick to think someone is shit when they are not. You just are super rich, in case you didn't notice, and have nicer things and not a cubicle only job, though I do respect your maturity on how your job sucks, which I hope you can see as a funny joke.. insofar as I mean you don't really move around.. see, I told you what I meant, and this is my remote blog in the remote corners of the universe of consciousness.. and don't you make fun of me anyone for saying that!
Anything else?
Nothing wrong with using the word sicko. It's sick to think someone is shit when they are not. You just are super rich, in case you didn't notice, and have nicer things and not a cubicle only job, though I do respect your maturity on how your job sucks, which I hope you can see as a funny joke.. insofar as I mean you don't really move around.. see, I told you what I meant, and this is my remote blog in the remote corners of the universe of consciousness.. and don't you make fun of me anyone for saying that!
Anything else?
So
I am sorry if I said anything I oughtn't or that you didn't prefer. I just see that it was indeed done to punish me. I don't think that's okay, in reality..
Wow
Do you think anyone would wanna be in my shoes, like Ellen? What makes you think I can't be happier?
You know
what do I think about this maybe I should go by not saying anything? I
was disturbed and ended up posting "what." I didn't hurt anyone, but I
have the right to be mad like that. That's what usually happens. I
just want to mention it cuz I find it a possible problem.
Problem
My video get all bad on YouTube. She has no right to poke her nose in there. I don't sit here and test what I won't react to like I'm some fish in a bowl!
Look
No, I don't mean to hurt her feelings, I'm not out to get anyone! But I'm not gonna be like okay and submit to her. I'm quite sure she's messing around, however. She has no right to do that. She can't make a pact with someone in my life and hypnotize them. Who does she think she is? No one should do that, tho, just cuz I said that.
What's wrong with what I said? You just got a hicky from Kinticky? I'm not here to like settle the debts of life. I don't want people behind my back telling me I'm bad, like my dad all the time. I won't accept it. Someone do something. He won't stop. I swear.. *Beep*
What's wrong with what I said? You just got a hicky from Kinticky? I'm not here to like settle the debts of life. I don't want people behind my back telling me I'm bad, like my dad all the time. I won't accept it. Someone do something. He won't stop. I swear.. *Beep*
How Dare She
I mean, come on? Why do you all stare at me? I didn't do anything. Quit probing into my life and saying I was bad.
When she's good, maybe we shouldn't accept her.
You know, recently they were playing around about that boy, too, and saying he was like someone's dad and not me. I didn't really like that. It was a mean thing to say. Is she crazy?
When she's good, maybe we shouldn't accept her.
You know, recently they were playing around about that boy, too, and saying he was like someone's dad and not me. I didn't really like that. It was a mean thing to say. Is she crazy?
Problem
So, why does Ellen keep getting back? I bet she got rid of the main or sole account of a boy from England I liked. He took me off his Facebook. I mean on IMDb. She thinks I thought there was something in it getting upset, but so what? How picky and nonsensical can you be? That's cruel and no one should have to listen to someone like her. She does not make you feel good, and I don't know why people are all defending what she does like this.
Let's just say she didn't do it. But how can she do that to someone else? So what? I was just talking anyway. I got upset at her in my mind. I just try to avoid people when that happens, but she should really leave me alone. I'm sick and tired of this.
I see different reasons behind this, and none of them are worth anything on this planet.
Let's just say she didn't do it. But how can she do that to someone else? So what? I was just talking anyway. I got upset at her in my mind. I just try to avoid people when that happens, but she should really leave me alone. I'm sick and tired of this.
I see different reasons behind this, and none of them are worth anything on this planet.
Saturday, August 23, 2014
My Note
Quit bothering me. I said I don't wanna share that girl like that, don't get all romantic and think I'd care @ her for you and foil her.
If someone hurts me.
I can get upset or call them something.
The only issue is safety. But this is MY blog.
The only issue is safety. But this is MY blog.
Problem
My dad keeps finding problems and hurts me. It's like he won't care about my mom because they upset me, Ellen DeGeneres.
My mom is sick, and my dad thinks I made her worse so doesn't wanna be with her. Yea right.
My mom is sick, and my dad thinks I made her worse so doesn't wanna be with her. Yea right.
Okay I admit it
What is it:
I had a horrible, terruble, no good, very bad day! I ws PO'd at someone moving my cheese. I used to have a daily calendar called "Who Moved My CHeese?"
I had a horrible, terruble, no good, very bad day! I ws PO'd at someone moving my cheese. I used to have a daily calendar called "Who Moved My CHeese?"
Problems
I was being nice to Bella Thorne, and suddenly Ellen made everything about her. It only is nice in that it's someone I like. However, she has an attitude about it toward me. I thought it was something to be left alone, but I can still hear her laugh.
Also, I was thinking of the lyrics of Jackie Evancho singing from Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory, "There is no.." like sarcastic like some fat lady in her 40s saying me understanding something or like feeling okay is "no." Everyone in the world is like that to me, but I reject it all. My only escape is if I find myself in the world of other young actresses.
Think about this, too, I follow Bella Thorne, and Ellen DeGeneres thinks I'm crap to her. Also, I know Bella Thorne's mom thinks in a forta fun yet tacky way that, "This is it, you, Bella, my daughter, though I don't think you're all ready, are it, the best person, you replaced Christina along with all her dreams and so much more."
I also got the message from an old theater teacher Ginny Kopf and Ellen DeGeneres that even though the world likes me I should be thrown to the floor and not paid attention to in a harsh manner. They think they are *** oriented enough to please others while the problem being they said I'm not and were mean to me and possibly others. I think they just go to what annoys people rather than acting 1 way. Like, they think I'm a show off by being nice, but that makes no sense. They can't say I'm too old to be the daughter of a sane person their age or style.
Also, I get people sending me messages through my dad, like it's Josh Groban, while they do whatever they want like for me to be treated nice I have to be treated bad and not them like before when it was hard cuza how they were. Maybe, nothing was wrong, but I wasn't mean, so don't attack me. Some people went ahead and messed up. Like, ooh, Christina did something. I don't give a **** if she is mad.
I can just see Ellen saying my post is crap and therefore I am and therefore she is right and to be mean and she said she wasn't. She kinda ruined my relationship with my parents.
Why if I have something to talk about do people like Ellen act like a glass building just fell apart? Part of this was to explain and sorta apologize. There is nothing wrong with talking that I would need to be punished, but it would be nice not to have it happen.
If this is so boring start doing something interesting. Start being actors or artists or something yourself for starters. Some people don't think about me in private but are nice when they see me. I was able to live in the world before, and I am able to now. I don't know why people like talking to me. Maybe, they aren't. Maybe, they wanna make fun of me, but I don't want that.
Also, I was thinking of the lyrics of Jackie Evancho singing from Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory, "There is no.." like sarcastic like some fat lady in her 40s saying me understanding something or like feeling okay is "no." Everyone in the world is like that to me, but I reject it all. My only escape is if I find myself in the world of other young actresses.
Think about this, too, I follow Bella Thorne, and Ellen DeGeneres thinks I'm crap to her. Also, I know Bella Thorne's mom thinks in a forta fun yet tacky way that, "This is it, you, Bella, my daughter, though I don't think you're all ready, are it, the best person, you replaced Christina along with all her dreams and so much more."
I also got the message from an old theater teacher Ginny Kopf and Ellen DeGeneres that even though the world likes me I should be thrown to the floor and not paid attention to in a harsh manner. They think they are *** oriented enough to please others while the problem being they said I'm not and were mean to me and possibly others. I think they just go to what annoys people rather than acting 1 way. Like, they think I'm a show off by being nice, but that makes no sense. They can't say I'm too old to be the daughter of a sane person their age or style.
Also, I get people sending me messages through my dad, like it's Josh Groban, while they do whatever they want like for me to be treated nice I have to be treated bad and not them like before when it was hard cuza how they were. Maybe, nothing was wrong, but I wasn't mean, so don't attack me. Some people went ahead and messed up. Like, ooh, Christina did something. I don't give a **** if she is mad.
I can just see Ellen saying my post is crap and therefore I am and therefore she is right and to be mean and she said she wasn't. She kinda ruined my relationship with my parents.
Why if I have something to talk about do people like Ellen act like a glass building just fell apart? Part of this was to explain and sorta apologize. There is nothing wrong with talking that I would need to be punished, but it would be nice not to have it happen.
If this is so boring start doing something interesting. Start being actors or artists or something yourself for starters. Some people don't think about me in private but are nice when they see me. I was able to live in the world before, and I am able to now. I don't know why people like talking to me. Maybe, they aren't. Maybe, they wanna make fun of me, but I don't want that.
Problem
These people experimenting on my are annoying me and loading the page like I'm sucking milk, waiting until I feel guilty, again.
I know what it was.
Ellen went against what she said and when I was posting thinking I wasn't in trouble, she called me something really bad, like I had done something. She might not really mean it.
What if the only reason she talks so much to another girl now is cuz I was upset when she was mean to me?
What if the only reason she talks so much to another girl now is cuz I was upset when she was mean to me?
The goal
was not to say anything. Guess it was just a test. I didn't blow up. I can't get over people thinking, "Just don't say anything." Then, THEY GET IT.
Tell Me
Pretend to like me only to trick me in the end, perhaps? Like me, so you can call me a nigger whenever? Get mad if I say something??
I'm serious.
What these people do is shit. I just saw some posts on Twitter like "You nigger." Why would Ellen just come up and attack people? I don't agree with her. I already said I know it's because it could happen by accident, but I see the messages creeping in and going berserk cuz I said something.
D:
I'm feeling bad.
Why pick at me for talking about things? I don't live like that, following secret insults. I never did.
Why pick at me for talking about things? I don't live like that, following secret insults. I never did.
Problem
I won't accept Ellen dishing out insults from my dad to be my life like this. I bet the competitions are all rigged on trying to get in movies.
I know she doesn't want me to say this around her, but I can say it here. She used to be nicer. What do you think of that? Call someone else Asian.
I know she doesn't want me to say this around her, but I can say it here. She used to be nicer. What do you think of that? Call someone else Asian.
I hope what I said since last time isn't what you tap in your book to
even things out. You can't play around like this. This is serious.
I'll just take it you knew someone would pretend you said something. It
didn't matter before Tim Burton did Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.
If you just wanna say that someone like Ellen DeGeneres is too young to
be my mom, I want out. It may be too late for some.
In fact, you act like she's younger than us in some way, and she's not.
I don't see anything wrong nor wasteful about making this post. I'm not unable to talk. This was a productive post on many hidden points, or at least 1.
No, nothing should have come up.
I looked over some things, but then I elaborated after my initial response for some forgotten|unknown reason.
I guess it's no use going into what happened. I said..
1-I'm not 2.
2-Charlie and the Chocolate Factory was abused.
3-Ellen is not younger than people who are younger.
4-My post all had a point.
5-This should not have even come up.
6-My 1st question is the only thing you have to answer.
If Ellen needs like stimulation like that, that's up to her. I won't say no, don't do it, but I mean it seems selfish and long-standing as a gift from other fans who were remorseful of her. It has to do with abusing younger people. I didn't just sit here and complain, I thought of stuff I shouldn't have thought of.
Okay, I better say what it was, then. I said no one should call me Asian, and someone called me a Mongoloid.. I thought they stopped messing around on that level.. :( I'm also constantly being made fun of if it was Ellen who said to do it or not. My aunt just left and I look older, too, now. You should call other people Asian. Hmph! I don't need her satisfaction, neither. This is stupid. See, this is getting abusive. I was about to contact the hope line for something else, I think bad signs. You can't just sit there and keep abusing me and act like I didn't say that and claim I can have a say. What's in it in the shit, something I posted for Johnny Depp? And how do I know what else was done or not done and lied about? I don't want that kind of attention from some people. I was independent and somewhat talented before.
If you make me mad, and I'm upset awhile and that bursts your bubble is just too bad. This has no point. I don't want to be assimilated to my dad in bad ways, neither. This just bummed out my weekend. How blunt and a bummer is it to follow things like this on a microscopic level? only to get back at something I didn't do?
I already told you, if I take the pain to talk does not mean you can talk back to me again.
I have a lot of other messages someone wasted their time to do, too.
So what, everyone's gonna act like Ellen did it!
What should I do, call your mommy and daddy? You seem to like that with me. Thanks for ruining a good weekend.
I will not accept these hurtful Ellen messages. I will not be pushed to my sick family. I am not bad nor guilty. Figure that out. That's all I'm being treated as. And I keep being reminded of people who are mean to me like they mean something..
In fact, you act like she's younger than us in some way, and she's not.
I don't see anything wrong nor wasteful about making this post. I'm not unable to talk. This was a productive post on many hidden points, or at least 1.
No, nothing should have come up.
I looked over some things, but then I elaborated after my initial response for some forgotten|unknown reason.
I guess it's no use going into what happened. I said..
1-I'm not 2.
2-Charlie and the Chocolate Factory was abused.
3-Ellen is not younger than people who are younger.
4-My post all had a point.
5-This should not have even come up.
6-My 1st question is the only thing you have to answer.
If Ellen needs like stimulation like that, that's up to her. I won't say no, don't do it, but I mean it seems selfish and long-standing as a gift from other fans who were remorseful of her. It has to do with abusing younger people. I didn't just sit here and complain, I thought of stuff I shouldn't have thought of.
Okay, I better say what it was, then. I said no one should call me Asian, and someone called me a Mongoloid.. I thought they stopped messing around on that level.. :( I'm also constantly being made fun of if it was Ellen who said to do it or not. My aunt just left and I look older, too, now. You should call other people Asian. Hmph! I don't need her satisfaction, neither. This is stupid. See, this is getting abusive. I was about to contact the hope line for something else, I think bad signs. You can't just sit there and keep abusing me and act like I didn't say that and claim I can have a say. What's in it in the shit, something I posted for Johnny Depp? And how do I know what else was done or not done and lied about? I don't want that kind of attention from some people. I was independent and somewhat talented before.
If you make me mad, and I'm upset awhile and that bursts your bubble is just too bad. This has no point. I don't want to be assimilated to my dad in bad ways, neither. This just bummed out my weekend. How blunt and a bummer is it to follow things like this on a microscopic level? only to get back at something I didn't do?
I already told you, if I take the pain to talk does not mean you can talk back to me again.
I have a lot of other messages someone wasted their time to do, too.
So what, everyone's gonna act like Ellen did it!
What should I do, call your mommy and daddy? You seem to like that with me. Thanks for ruining a good weekend.
I will not accept these hurtful Ellen messages. I will not be pushed to my sick family. I am not bad nor guilty. Figure that out. That's all I'm being treated as. And I keep being reminded of people who are mean to me like they mean something..
Thursday, August 21, 2014
Why are you
acting like my older aunt has me as a baby just because of my age but in a nasty way? I will not accept being considered older than someone 10 years younger as far as how old my parents are.
Tuesday, August 19, 2014
Problems
Now, people keep giving me parts of my body to mess up. My big toes feel inflated. I lost my toenail clipper and got frustrated with the fingernail 1. I don't see how anyone can do that to me, violate me. It's terribly uncomfortable. I know it's just a shitty putting together of puzzle pieces like my body doesn't matter.. you wanna give me cancer? Please don't freak out that I actually talk about my problems rather than remain a mundane fool who sits their asses in front of other people's faces. You can't hurt me if I don't do everything you like and you're wrong. You don't ultimately hurt others. You wanna think about what I said? I don't attack others. I only defend my rights to live.
Problem
Don't you dare put me up to my dad. Ellen sure posted a load of nonsensical secret messages. What is the meaning of seriously putting me up to my dad?? Doesn't hurt to ask.. I'm not gonna sit here and wonder about shit like that and waste my life for others.
Monday, August 18, 2014
Had a Crazy Personal Day
Sorry about disturbing the peace with Mom.
Anywa..
I already posted a sorry to Josh Groban. I did it again. I said I was disgusted. I told my dad today I'll say nasty, but it doesn't come in that form. It was a help chat. I wish I just stopped doing these things, already!
Anywa..
I already posted a sorry to Josh Groban. I did it again. I said I was disgusted. I told my dad today I'll say nasty, but it doesn't come in that form. It was a help chat. I wish I just stopped doing these things, already!
I always try
to hold it in when I feel violent. I don't really know why. I am probably not mature enough to handle some things that people think of.
Problem
Stop saying my cousin is white and well-behaved over me.
I got a message from someone who bothers me..
I got a message from someone who bothers me..
Look at what's
hanging in the air now
http://t.co/lcfBgZV7hZ
— josh groban (@joshgroban) August 18, 2014
I SAID STOP
ELLEN
She made my cousin Like something on Facebook when my aunt said something about my mom can't speak for me..
She made my cousin Like something on Facebook when my aunt said something about my mom can't speak for me..
Why
do the messages keep coming? This could make me ill. I would have to blame the experimenters or Ellen DeGeneres for telling them what to do to me.
I think
they are doing something inappropriate to me even to talk about. I'm not gonna hang over and worship anyone like an itch all the time.
Quit wasting my time making me uncomfortable.
Quit wasting my time making me uncomfortable.
What did I do to you
Brad? I have a sick mom.
? The thought just came. For a reason.
What did I do?? I just said I think he's doing the same thing as the other guy.
? The thought just came. For a reason.
What did I do?? I just said I think he's doing the same thing as the other guy.
Well
I don't know about being sorry, think I hurt myself, but sorry Ellen, but aren't you still laughing?
How Heart-Wrenching
Most people would think.. I was upset and my mom made like a cry it felt trying to get better in peace. Well, thanks to my brother I went berserk. It's that boy not accepting me and that girl getting everything to some of my favorite people.
STOP IT
Y'all are gonna love this song. & the label & Mgt. have a plan for tonight's leak. I'm actually gonna let them do this 1 #leakingmoonshine
— Brad Paisley (@BradPaisley) August 18, 2014
I'm not the loser, loser.
I DON'T GIVE A *BEEP* *BEEP* @ IT
WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM ELLEN? MY MOM WAS ABLE TO STIMULATE ME ALOT IN A BAD WAY? I WAS JUST UPSET MY BROTHER POKED AT ME FOR IT. I SAID *BEEP* ELLEN WHAT NOT ENOUGH? I TOLD YOU TO STOP.
I WILL *BEEP* ANYONE WHO ALUDES TO ASIAN AROUND ME
Тёма is loving his Team China uniform! #japanesechin http://t.co/UxQSFQfsPf
— Johnny Weir (@JohnnyGWeir) August 18, 2014WHAT'S THIS LADY'S PROBLEM
This happens every time I try to shoot a time-lapse video of Glacier National Park http://t.co/7zyPqsZ1xP
— Ellen DeGeneres (@TheEllenShow) August 18, 2014
SHE IS THE MEAN 1 NOT ME
Problem
Josh Groban is now causing me family problems, or is it the girl? My mom is sick, and my brother just drove me insane. You all aren't letting me feel at peace ever, like I'm right. It's called taking advantage of someone. Really.
Problem
You made me fall again and scream.
My brother was posed in front when I came out and started walking. NERD.
YOU STOP TIMING THIS WHEN I CLICKED SOMETHING IMPORTANT TO YOU AND STOP REACTING NOW
My brother was posed in front when I came out and started walking. NERD.
YOU STOP TIMING THIS WHEN I CLICKED SOMETHING IMPORTANT TO YOU AND STOP REACTING NOW
Well, fans,
I got mad in my room. I'm not a nigger and I don't give a shit about horsecrap on these details.
Problem
My brother won't stop now! I was thinking I could hurt him, and he's like to my mom, "Which 1 do you think that was?" Stop holding me off a day or a week for I did just get mad and hit something and hurt myself some.
Upset
I feel made fun of that someone ignored me. They screenshotted my posts. I'm waiting to ask about getting credit for courses.
Apology
I'm so sorry for ruining the relationship! I thought I was well stocked away when I was in bed more this morning.
I wouldn't call this a comfortable enough situation. Why not get over the Ellen thing? That seems to be part of the trouble of blaming me for other things in the past, if I do something else. That doesn't make sense like that.
I do respect Ellen, I just said she acted like she did these mean things to me, noises in my room. Why would she say that? They hurt me a lot.
I wouldn't call this a comfortable enough situation. Why not get over the Ellen thing? That seems to be part of the trouble of blaming me for other things in the past, if I do something else. That doesn't make sense like that.
I do respect Ellen, I just said she acted like she did these mean things to me, noises in my room. Why would she say that? They hurt me a lot.
Why is
Ellen paranoid about the word "disgusting" and typing in all caps? She can't control what we need to say. Thinking it's cute. She has probably used caps and questionable sentences.
Problem
Why be so nice to that girl now? If you called her black, I mean I've been called black all the time. That's your responsibility to not go wacked about.
This other guy
Brad Paisley is apparently on a roll making fun of me thinking maybe he didn't do it, well I don't wanna have this done to me I don't deserve it. This is cuza all yer shit all the people making up stuff and now I can't be how I want.
Problem
So last night I got a message quick from my dad when I came back in to talk about Manipat Molloy, "Oh, and don't hang around [boy from England who wants to marry me,]" but won't talk to me.
Problem
My brother came out at about the same time.. I don't want a kid like him. I got a bad message. STOP IT. The experimenters brought him out.
So
TELL ME how I can talk. It's your idea and apparently not for me to figure out. I said okay, but my mom rubbed something in.
Sunday, August 17, 2014
Problem
My dad keeps giving annoying messages from Ellen. He said in symbol I wasn't white, to be mean to me to get stimulated that I'm not white! You're not supposed to be able to say that! I felt stimulated so left the room.
Whenever my aunt comes, they act like it's something about me not having "the right" kids! I will not take this shit!
Whenever my aunt comes, they act like it's something about me not having "the right" kids! I will not take this shit!
So
You think I'm some nasty girl attacking people? No, I post what bothers me so I may be helped and it be documented.
I came out to talk
but my uncle-in-law was talking. My aunt cried out a laugh, shows what a problem she is. I'm not attacking an innocent person. She was laughing at me hysterically with that cry. You all make me mad and don't care. You don't care about me anymore. I don't know what my problem is. I don't want these people controlling my social life.
Problem
Why is my life totally abused in private cuza Ellen?
I heard ticking noises and they messed up my face. My left eye felt like it was over my nose.
It's been hurt 4 times. Or played with.
I heard ticking noises and they messed up my face. My left eye felt like it was over my nose.
It's been hurt 4 times. Or played with.
Cold Blooded
No one cares that my life is surrounded like this. I am better off alone, but I was eating.
Problems
They are tracking me down via Ellen the media. I was upset at some sarcastic girl, and she is now being presented with an English dude.
I have a tendency I know
to not listen to bad people, so I mean hitting the table with my fork, I mean I was already doing stuff there, but guess my dad noticed. I don't like hitting stuff. I must tell you my dad used a noise against me and mimicked me like I was Central Florida|Orlando shit.
Problem
Ellen is just trying to stimulate me that people are experimenting on me that they know and I saw my dad at a coordinated time, then my mom, and just now my brother. Like waving something in front of my face hypnotically. She thinks I'm shit cuz she's rich.
Problem
I just got threatened that because of me later this boy from England will be brought up as though I deserve it for hitting the table with my fork. My aunt. I thought to myself I'm not dealing with this waiting a day if something happens or anything at all for those people.
MY DAD IS A LUNATIC
HE WON'T STOP SENDING MEAN SECRET MESSAGES.
I JUST WENT OUT TO MAYBE HELP IN THE KITCHEN.
I JUST WENT OUT TO MAYBE HELP IN THE KITCHEN.
Example
My dad got home when I came out to eat, after the bathroom- and my mom came out when I went back in my room. I know it's a message and insult from Ellen. She only does bad things to me like this, and I have a bad time. I am feeling old. She won't stop.
What if..
What if Ellen did this?
#MISSING: #ShainaMcBride (14, W/F, 5'6", 145lbs, blonde hair, grn eyes, unk clothing). Last seen: 8/15 9am- call FLPD pic.twitter.com/2Z96x2wXIn
— Fort Lauderdale PD (@FLPD411) August 17, 2014
for that girl?
SHE WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE
Ft Lauderdale made a post, supposedly directed at me cuz there was a guy at the end crouching over, spit in the sea.
HEY STOP IT SLOWING DOWN THE WAY IT LOADS LIKE AND ANOTHER THING - LIKE I'M A GIRL IN A SHAW IN ELLEN'S MIXED UP FANTASY
HEY STOP IT SLOWING DOWN THE WAY IT LOADS LIKE AND ANOTHER THING - LIKE I'M A GIRL IN A SHAW IN ELLEN'S MIXED UP FANTASY
I have guests today
and a case of boredom. Ellen planted my dad's bad attitude, and he did something out of place for the boy from England and now they think I was upset because of that. I did hit the table with my fork when my dad wasn't looking.
Saturday, August 16, 2014
Problem
Whenever I type in my Blogger I think of giving that English boy to that girl infinitely. I posted when it upset me.
Punishment?
Quit torturing me from Ellen. You are making patterns to stimulate me. I can't take it in fun cuz it's not.
I don't wanna have to post about it all the time and have to deal with it. My mom has cancer!
I don't wanna have to post about it all the time and have to deal with it. My mom has cancer!
So
These people watching me accept my apology but think it doesn't make a difference, when I didn't do anything and the whole world agrees I don't deserve to have this treatment. Now, I got mad and no one can trust me! I'm mad!
I know what it is.
It's Ellen and Johnny thinking they are ***y "real" Southerners when they ain't! Not more than me. They think they are the girl with the pottery for water drawing water for everyone with their head inclined like they're princess Jasmine.
So
When I posted about the cancer, I felt violated and like no one cared.
When I posted about being made to feel silly, I felt it twice.
STOP SAYING NO LEAVE ME ALONE PICKY I DIDN'T SAY YOU COULD MIC IN MY LIFE
When I posted about being made to feel silly, I felt it twice.
STOP SAYING NO LEAVE ME ALONE PICKY I DIDN'T SAY YOU COULD MIC IN MY LIFE
Problems and Apology
I'm not doing -anything- for Ellen. My dad did something a little silly, and someone has ants in their pants and wants me to do the boogy dance.
Also, apology maybe if you're nice and it hurt your feelings who you thought I simply think gave my mom and possibly someday me cancer. True, our lives aren't perfect healthwise, but we don't need someone barking at us for our differences.
Also, apology maybe if you're nice and it hurt your feelings who you thought I simply think gave my mom and possibly someday me cancer. True, our lives aren't perfect healthwise, but we don't need someone barking at us for our differences.
Like
not talk about it, but that sounds like a trick from an old best friend. Also, me being like my dad is like a trick from my old best friend and Nell Burton. I don't want *** with that man.
Apparenlty
Ellen wants to be the 1 to talk and say things against me while I just sit there and read it and squirm around.
Why
are people alwyas disappointed iwth me just to get that feeling? I don't need that. I hate people who treat me like I'm a weak minority citizen.
All day, this person is interacting with me who I don't even know and may not like.. I like everyone in some way, but I mean like I get upset with people, too.. :|
All day, this person is interacting with me who I don't even know and may not like.. I like everyone in some way, but I mean like I get upset with people, too.. :|
Problem
If I get cancer I blame you. They were "tender" and made a click that honed in on my breast. I don't want that person to touch me!
Oh no, I just realized that's not nice. Well, my mom has it.
Oh no, I just realized that's not nice. Well, my mom has it.
A site isn't working
the full heads from Candy Bar Dolls with the hats and highlighted hair. I bet Ellen did it. If not, then what?
Question
Why is Ellen acting like I'm in trouble for a spance over when her show starts and she's not? All mean. I just post when there's a problem. She just thinks it's inapporpriate, but it's my blog and my secondary blog, not the Gettysburgh Adress. Guess she's not much of a talker.
That's not nice to think upon 1 person who you're jealous of who's nice.
That's not nice to think upon 1 person who you're jealous of who's nice.
QUIT IT
Don't show me stupid babies cuz I said you act weird for your satisfactions cuz I spoke like a white person with confidence when these disciplinarians at Valencia were being unreasonable for no reason.
Leave me the f*** alone altogether with those insults! They've been ticking the sign that they do what they do.
Leave me the f*** alone altogether with those insults! They've been ticking the sign that they do what they do.
Oh
So you just think I'm trash and wanna think about that girl all the time and you ain't gotta do nothing? You all just are wrapped up in your menial ways of thought.
I don't hurt people when I talk.
So, that's actually a lie. I would probably say like, "Oh my God! What's up with this shit. That *beep*!"
Problem
Ellen is being suggestive again. Why do I see everyone everywhere feeling threatened by Ellen to be mean to me? I don't like her hurting me, so what? Lots of people curse. She's just a mean lady.
Friday, August 15, 2014
Sorry if anything
was too rough and hurt someone's feelings, but if it's about wanting me punished, I mean, some things I wanna talk about!
Look
I'm not a bad person. I never do anything bad. What you did to me was wrong and ruined my life. I am a big girl, now....
So
I wasn't just on a rampage. I wanted to talk about that girl. I don't like the way Ellen is trying to laugh at me not believing she thinks she can punish me.
PROBLEM
I KNOW YOU'RE PLAYING AROUND YOU THINK THAT GIRL IS OVERLOADED AND WANNA TICKLE ME ABOUT IT WELL I'M DWINDLING THE STUPIDITY OF THE MESSAGES I RECEPT
Problem
STOP IT WITH THAT GIRL. SOMEONE ON TWITTER GAVE ME A MESSAGE FROM THAT BOY SAYING "NO"
QUIT YER PLAIN AROUND
QUIT YER PLAIN AROUND
I already said that girl could have partly or whatever..
or know or share that boy. I got some nastiness associated with it. I'm tired of these uptooned messages.
I can't say no one can talk to someone away from me. They can't sever my relationship.
I can't say no one can talk to someone away from me. They can't sever my relationship.
Basically
Ellen is a wannabe in the heat Southerner perfectionist and acts like I'm in trouble to do it.
Wow
Ellen, you already are onto that girl. You said you didn't do it to punish me, and now you did, so you're just a beastly liar.
LEAVE ME ALONE
They are giving that girl that English guy in a way, did several things to the page I was on.
THIS IS MY BLOG SO DON'T BE SHIT ON THE WINDOW
THIS IS MY BLOG SO DON'T BE SHIT ON THE WINDOW
GET OUTTA MY LIFE IF YOURE SHITTING AT MY LIFE
and you don't have to be Ellen!! Not that I'd want to say that about anyone. So, who cares if I said it about her or not? But I'm not.
Problem
Why are people in my house "waiting" for me to annoy me? Doesn't that mean they'd just be shit??
You don't even know
what I meant. Why seclude someone who was nice to me? Reminds me of when I was a kid and blacks and teachers startled me and other kids cornered me sorta @ my race.
Off to Have My Day
Sorry about being sloppy last night, but while I was mad even they continued to disturb me. So, someone is being mean, and it seems everyone and Ellen knows it's Ellen and cuz she has a reason. I think it's a group of people. Have a nice day! Just know this, they are being mean through secret messages.
Whew!
At least, I've stopped, but reporting these things I'm uncomfortable with..means something.
Why isn't the page even loading? Another message? No, you did do uncomfortable things to me, and I don't wanna be the only one who knows and deals with it. I don't want anyone to suffer this.
No pages loading?
WHY DOES ONLY A HARDER BROWSER WORK? YOU WANT ME TO WORK NOW? NO YOU DIDN'T. WHO CARES ABOUT YOU?
Why isn't the page even loading? Another message? No, you did do uncomfortable things to me, and I don't wanna be the only one who knows and deals with it. I don't want anyone to suffer this.
No pages loading?
WHY DOES ONLY A HARDER BROWSER WORK? YOU WANT ME TO WORK NOW? NO YOU DIDN'T. WHO CARES ABOUT YOU?
Thursday, August 14, 2014
So what?
Am I bad? What was that little tag for? I talked to someone and wondered about people on my good side.
STOP IT
I CAN TELL YOU OUT LOUD TO LEAVE ME ALONE
THEY SIAD SOMETHING - POINTED TO A NICE PART AND SAID DIZZY..
THEY SIAD SOMETHING - POINTED TO A NICE PART AND SAID DIZZY..
Problems
My dad is always set to wait to see me when I come out.
Also, Ellen really is bothering me. I am poor, my dad cannot afford to feed me. I am unhappy.
Also, Ellen really is bothering me. I am poor, my dad cannot afford to feed me. I am unhappy.
Problem
Now I see IMDb with the photo lines like it's a line rather than a board!! STOP IT ELLEN. I SAID STOP. SICKO. THINK I SAOUND LIKE MY DAD? IT DOESN'T MEAN I'M CLOSE TO HIM.
Also
I might write it for my dad in the night and I need sleep. I don't care aobut this. Get my dad out. He's not a part of my life. Quit ruining it. You are nasty.
MORE SHIT
I TOLD YOU WHAT I TOLD YOU AND YOU WERE WRONG
Someone posted about a piece of the|ir brain and then there was a quiz posted at the same time. About a European city. WILL YOU STOP. QUIT IT. YOU GO TO JAIL. NO ONE AGREES. I'M NOT STUPID!!
Someone posted about a piece of the|ir brain and then there was a quiz posted at the same time. About a European city. WILL YOU STOP. QUIT IT. YOU GO TO JAIL. NO ONE AGREES. I'M NOT STUPID!!
See
Ellen just wants to kill me. She gave my dad a writing job to be like me. I SAID I DON'T WANNA BE CLOSE TO HIM. GET AWAY YOU FAKE. AND WE NEVER EAT OUT ANYMORE AND HAVE FAST FOOD SOMETIMES.
Problem
I am worried my dad is giving me cancer..
He gave me something to remember.. well not for a long time. Something I don't wanna do. Text him. Get that *beep* outta my LIFE! WHAT A F***ING DISGUSTING LOSER TO BOTHER ME. I am just getting out my anger! I need HELP!
Did those English people convince me to get out my anger? Let's see, what did I actually say this time? Well, cancer.. just stop there? *beep* What's wrong with *beep*?
He gave me something to remember.. well not for a long time. Something I don't wanna do. Text him. Get that *beep* outta my LIFE! WHAT A F***ING DISGUSTING LOSER TO BOTHER ME. I am just getting out my anger! I need HELP!
Did those English people convince me to get out my anger? Let's see, what did I actually say this time? Well, cancer.. just stop there? *beep* What's wrong with *beep*?
Problem
Whatever it is is wrong. I will not be left to wonder what the last piece of shit of a message was. Cuz it is an insult, not a nice message. It means something to figure out. It's not a nice thing, too.
STOP IT
I SAID I KNOW YOU REFRESH YOURSELF THE NEXT DAY BUT YOU'RE THE ONE WHO'S MEAN WHO ARE YOU ANYWAY!
NO ONE AGREES AND KNOWS YOU DO IT
NO ONE AGREES AND KNOWS YOU DO IT
THEY WON'T STOP
ELLEN STOP IT YOU *BEEP* I DON'T CARE WHO YOU THINK YOU ARE IF YOU DID IT YOU BETTER STOP
SHIT
[I thought and posted.. You pieces of shit!] :(
Not saying what, but I got kicked outta my major because maybe of a C. Now, I am 28 and I have nowhere to go in my life apparently. 1 successful year of college. Thanks Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, but I ain't no actor, neither. I can't experience affection, neither. I need something to propel my life. I can't even expect that in a husband.
Not saying what, but I got kicked outta my major because maybe of a C. Now, I am 28 and I have nowhere to go in my life apparently. 1 successful year of college. Thanks Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, but I ain't no actor, neither. I can't experience affection, neither. I need something to propel my life. I can't even expect that in a husband.
I didn't mean
to sound vicious to anyone really. I just felt vicious in general. I just feel people are secretly punishing me and that my dad is suddenly abusive without saying what and how I can get him to stop, like it's funny he won't.
Problem
They keep making my mouse move other ways just because I told them to stop bothering me with clicks in my room which they won't unless I wear earplugs which my block my alarm.
Before, when I played with my mouse on my blog, my dad barged in and left and then my blog loads slowly when I post, to minimize and stuff.
Before, when I played with my mouse on my blog, my dad barged in and left and then my blog loads slowly when I post, to minimize and stuff.
I don't wanna feel
threatened about that girl. Don't make me wait around and call me a holdup.. My dad expressed some message was specifically meant for me in a flippant way, like it is but then again it won't be answered to. Like some reason will be made up and I have to end up putting up with it. I obviously mean no offense but some defense. It's not that big a deal to some people, but this is a message I got. My dad continues to believe I am in trouble when he feels like it. I am not in more trouble than other kids's attitudes and I don't do anything to be in trouble. Wanna make me have cancer? Are you trying to turn me into a murderer? They seem to sympathize with me.
I realize it must be scary I just used the word "murderer" in the same post and paragraph as other things and people, but I mean no real harm. In fact, my brother's dog just died. They stopped walking him and stuff, like my aunt's dog dying a long time ago, a police dog. He didn't bark to come in and does not come in usually when I ask. I guess I just forgot. I just got a hamster, too, and can't take it out when I clean cuz it's a quick and could escape. It has 2 rooms. Someone else in my family's grandpa, unrelated, just died, as well.
I don't mean anyone harm, but no one has responded to the fact that I am considered well-behaved other than this foolishness, whereas I know they are jealous they are not. I can't do anything to appease my life. Imagine that. Pretending I deserve something like this. You want me with my dad so he can shit at me and diss me. He can lie and I can't seem to do anything back. I can, but then I can't. He's not famous, he can shit if he likes and I'm in the same house. No one'll know.. No one will be able to alter their situation. I suggest ya'll get OUT of my life, ya'll so confused and all and scared I can make my own decisions. Ya'll aren't helping. I see myself dead in some ditch.
Might be scary I said I am afraid I will be killed in this, while you're in the same post and paragraph, as well. I mean no one harm. I feel upset that there's the idea I need to be close to my dad in a way I don't like and that there's a secret punishment ya'll are doing but won't own up to. You can't do this to me. Ya'll're disgusting. Who the Hell do you think you are?
I realize it must be scary I just used the word "murderer" in the same post and paragraph as other things and people, but I mean no real harm. In fact, my brother's dog just died. They stopped walking him and stuff, like my aunt's dog dying a long time ago, a police dog. He didn't bark to come in and does not come in usually when I ask. I guess I just forgot. I just got a hamster, too, and can't take it out when I clean cuz it's a quick and could escape. It has 2 rooms. Someone else in my family's grandpa, unrelated, just died, as well.
I don't mean anyone harm, but no one has responded to the fact that I am considered well-behaved other than this foolishness, whereas I know they are jealous they are not. I can't do anything to appease my life. Imagine that. Pretending I deserve something like this. You want me with my dad so he can shit at me and diss me. He can lie and I can't seem to do anything back. I can, but then I can't. He's not famous, he can shit if he likes and I'm in the same house. No one'll know.. No one will be able to alter their situation. I suggest ya'll get OUT of my life, ya'll so confused and all and scared I can make my own decisions. Ya'll aren't helping. I see myself dead in some ditch.
Might be scary I said I am afraid I will be killed in this, while you're in the same post and paragraph, as well. I mean no one harm. I feel upset that there's the idea I need to be close to my dad in a way I don't like and that there's a secret punishment ya'll are doing but won't own up to. You can't do this to me. Ya'll're disgusting. Who the Hell do you think you are?
Some of the most purest creatures in the world are ones that dont speak... Rescue/save/adopt today @NevadaSPCA #PreventAnimalCruelty
— Zak Bagans (@Zak_Bagans) August 14, 2014My dad keeps leaving me
excessive annoying messages. He snuck 1 in about my mom and zebra patterns, which his youngest sister likes. My Gramma saw my bedding and was like do you like that? Like get away!!
Problem
I was playing with my mouse while on Blogger, and my dad came in my room and now my blog is always slow to load when I post.
Problem
They are saying since I stopped following Bella Thorne mobiley on Twitter that no one older gives a shit about me.
It might be Ellen. So, don't make fun of people who are nice to me.
It might be Ellen. So, don't make fun of people who are nice to me.
What's with
having famous people like Obama visit the college campus when that freak banned me from stepping foot on campus until I get a note?
Problem
I needed something printed out to audition to act, and my dad didn't do it. He didn't print out something else before, neither, I forgot about, from CUA|for UCF. I just want him to stop possessing me all of a sudden. He's mean all the time. I swear, I didn't do anything.
Problem
Why do you need that incessant joking around from me? Guess you don't wanna hear the word satisfaction, but this is the shit blog of mine. You can't hurt me and tell me what to do.
What I Mean Is
It seems like great satisfaction has been taken flubbing over my strong confidence being interviewed about my behavior. It seems to have been the only thing I've heard this much.
And there's no rule in the world
that says that and I can't take it back just to be safe but not really sorry?
So
What is up with the satisfaction trap? I don't care what you say if it's wrong. Anyone wanna help me get away from these people? I had to tell what it was.
STOP IT
I can say what I like. You can't turn me into other people I don't like. Nothing more needs to be said. You're *beep* I don't listen to you. I can tell on you. I already feel it in my body and private.
I don't mean to cross any boundary lines..
..but I am disgusted or whatever at your satisfaction of punishing me in whatever way for being forceful when the people were disciplining me at Valencia.
I have no desire
to get back at you, but you are hurting me, and that is just bloody disgusting you can't take me having my own attitude and own self-esteem and be a force of power representing myself to dummies like you. You wanna bow your head?
I stand by what I say.
DISGUSTING
You get mad if when they interview me to kick me out that I have a lotta
self-esteem and put a crazy lady in the mental hospital like that's my
punishment? An older tacky lady? Now, I'm back on pills and we have
little money? Wow, you sure got your shit in the biscuits!
No one thinks you have the right to do this. Put an annoying lady with me in the hospital cuz you can't take a shit of my forceful attitude, you racist.
I SAID STOP IT. WAS THAT ABOUT THE BOY IN ENGLAND? YOU'RE TACKY AND A NUISANCE.
I bet you all did it, too. Someone did. Why are the people in my room all talking like that?
Wednesday, August 13, 2014
Problem
I got a life Disney e-mail after talking about a disgusting black poster.
GO AWAY I AIN'T KEEPING UP WITH YOUR SHIT SPAM
GO AWAY I AIN'T KEEPING UP WITH YOUR SHIT SPAM
So
by Ellen I meant in real life she doesn't want me to calculate shit, but behind the walls it sounds like that's what she's dished out. Oh well. I hope she finds some friends.
I didn't even get to apologize
me saying stop it went outta hand last night and it hurt your feelings, but I didn't wanna sit there and calculate the messages inspired by Ellen so I just found that stopped it. I can't seem to avoid thinking that when I hear it. I can't leave or anything..
Yea, all I said was stop it.. :/
Yea, all I said was stop it.. :/
You can't sit here and test me like a lion
all in my face to not get upset and say something in my head.
Stop
Giving me stupid things to think about when you click and do things on the computer. Then stare at me thinking about it. All up in my face. Get a life.
You don't care
if I wanna hit something so gET OUT
WHY THE HELL DO YOU EVEN CARE YOU *BEEP* YOU MADE MY *BEEP* AUNT COME AND GRAMMA WHO SAID TO CALL
WHY THE HELL DO YOU EVEN CARE YOU *BEEP* YOU MADE MY *BEEP* AUNT COME AND GRAMMA WHO SAID TO CALL
Problem
More shit to do with it. I started liking my fish more and need to clean its water soon.. seems so soon. ELLEN DID IT.
DISGUSTING
You get mad if when they interview me to kick me out that I have a lotta self-esteem and put a crazy lady in the mental hospital like that's my punishment? An older tacky lady? Now, I'm back on pills and we have little money? Wow, you sure got your shit in the biscuits!
Problem
I told them to stop, they're making me think, and I'm trying to sleep. Then, I heard my noisemaker get hypnotic. I bet Ellen has something to do with this. I know she did it. Ya'll just stop.
Also, they make my blog slow because I was playing around with the mouse on it. So, they are ruining my stuff.
Also, they make my blog slow because I was playing around with the mouse on it. So, they are ruining my stuff.
Monday, August 11, 2014
Disturbed
IMDb will make us login with our email and not screenname on Sep. 1st. Ellen probably told them to do that.
Problem
My dad isn't keeping his distance and always pops up in a bad way. They are telling him when I come in and out of rooms.
I mean
it came up. I don't know if I think it matters, but it came up. Oh well, if ya'll like her, I mean yea you should. I never said not to.
Fine
Keep talking to Bella if that's what ya'll like. I might not fit in. She seems to feel very highly of herself compared to most other people..
So..
..It's too late, but I couldn't think of what else to say and I didn't mean it and take it back.. something no on ever did for me.
I'm so worried
about all I ended up writing last night a bit tired.
I was making a point that Bella isn't hotter than me cuz when she started acting she seemed less turned on, not as uppity like a kid usually is, etc. It's like seeing Jackie Evancho using the pleasure of luxury to act as though she deserves to look better than us and maybe it's not because we don't have money like that from singing.
I'm worried how it will be interpreted that Bella is a punishment. How does that feel for her? Her mom made her feel good about it. I can't say I like it cuz I know it's a punishment, but I try to be a good fan. Ya'll aren't fans. What am I supposed to do with Bella? She doesn't seem to always wanna be nice my way.
And about her pictuer of the kitchen table feeding, I mean, I know she did it when I started talking about her, so it's also a "punishment."
Now, I was always told I was well-behaved, so ya'll're really taking advantage of me. I can't think about this. It's a bit weird.
Someone is so hooked onto me saying she was disgusting, she's become a part of my everyday life at least twice. I meant she did it on purpose.
Okay, gotta go to the bathroom.
I was making a point that Bella isn't hotter than me cuz when she started acting she seemed less turned on, not as uppity like a kid usually is, etc. It's like seeing Jackie Evancho using the pleasure of luxury to act as though she deserves to look better than us and maybe it's not because we don't have money like that from singing.
I'm worried how it will be interpreted that Bella is a punishment. How does that feel for her? Her mom made her feel good about it. I can't say I like it cuz I know it's a punishment, but I try to be a good fan. Ya'll aren't fans. What am I supposed to do with Bella? She doesn't seem to always wanna be nice my way.
And about her pictuer of the kitchen table feeding, I mean, I know she did it when I started talking about her, so it's also a "punishment."
Now, I was always told I was well-behaved, so ya'll're really taking advantage of me. I can't think about this. It's a bit weird.
Someone is so hooked onto me saying she was disgusting, she's become a part of my everyday life at least twice. I meant she did it on purpose.
Okay, gotta go to the bathroom.
Back to Bed
You may have seen my edits on my shit blog. I was too tired to figure out what to even do last night or to get up, and my back still hurts, my spine. It's too bad.. I did say why though before. So, it's like, what else could you say. Well, I found out. Usually, I just don't say it, didn't know why I did. I just noticed that it came up on Twitter, so I put it in my shit blog.
Edit
I brought it up on Twitter. I am disgusted. What can I say? She just
posted a suggestive picture that threatens my identity. It's someone
caringly feeding at a set sat at table. You can at least notice I
labeled this post shit. I have to get my feelings out. Why would you
in the 1st place? I know she's not just being nice. Ya'll did that to
my freedom of speech. I was [more suited to be an actor] than her when
she was an actor, and I haven't achieved cuza RACISM as an adult and now
seem like the fat, ugly, sick 1.
If you are following me
sorry if you catch hints of "sarcasm" but you always post like that. I didn't want to suggest that of anyone.
The thing is..
..I like other people getting attention. This is something else. This is telling me I'm not what I was cracked up to be..
Sad
I don't care about that girl, but what if she's the reason Mannipat Malloy went home early?
I was attracted to her as a fan.
I was attracted to her as a fan.
Sunday, August 10, 2014
What?
Why does she matter? (If you don't know what I mean, it seems no one else does! There, that's something some of you will take.)
Think twice
about what I say. It's not really offensive. I have a thing where when I speak I mean it, I'm not trying to be extra sarcastic or anything NOR AT ALL OF COURSE.
It's just not fun in the end.
Bella gets mad at me if I have a good time with someone yet always protrudes her deep side onto you.
So
I'd like to take back what I said, but I reached a point on Twitter where it came out so I put it all on here.
Anyone know what went wrong then?
Ellen got mad at me this week for not interpreting a post with Bella included to punish me. I find it rather humiliating and dishonest. I want to know more.
Anyone know what went wrong then?
Ellen got mad at me this week for not interpreting a post with Bella included to punish me. I find it rather humiliating and dishonest. I want to know more.
How can 1 get so infatuated
if I said someone was being disgusting? Who cares how I said it, I can't always say things right the 1st time without writing it out.
You can't say
she's hotter than me then. I'll have to fix this for my real blog. I realize it's still online and I could delete it, but sometimes words like fat and attractive just come out..
Problem
I feel ignored because of her. Why talk to ya'll? Imma fight cuz you made everyone turn on me.
Sorry
I couldn't fix my writing. What I mean is I looked more like a movie star I guess and she didn't but still was and now I don't though I've been trying to be 1..
Well
I brought it up on Twitter. I am disgusted. What can I say? She just posted a suggestive picture that threatens my identity. It's someone caringly feeding at a set sat at table. You can at least notice I labeled this post shit. I have to get my feelings out. Why would you in the 1st place? I know she's not just being nice. Ya'll did that to my freedom of speech. I was [more suited to be an actor] than her when she was an actor, and I haven't achieved cuza RACISM as an adult and now seem like the fat, ugly, sick 1.
I mean..
..if it's about her, where'd she go? What are we supposed to do? You can't monitor my privacy of thought.
Weird
Why keep telling me Bella Thorne is better than me, like teasing me? That's not what I meant to say. I can't think of how to say it. I think you already know. Everything was better before this replacing me came along. Now I feel I'm in the dirt..
So, I said it cuz it was important I not hold back cuz something could happen to someone if I did it feels, that's all. I'm naming Ellen cuz she started it. Actually, I think it was a collective decision that she steal the, like, ideas I earned. Like, I posted online, I did well in school, I'm nice to people. Ya'll're crazy! I just couldn't stand the noises in my room. They've even been made to make me feel suicidal when I heard things in my ear. Not really, but it was like I felt like I had to kill myself but knew it'd go away maybe. I could always ask for help hopefully. Perhaps, I wasn't all as great as made out to be then but they got in the way of any opportunity because of like age and time and money and people.
So, I said it cuz it was important I not hold back cuz something could happen to someone if I did it feels, that's all. I'm naming Ellen cuz she started it. Actually, I think it was a collective decision that she steal the, like, ideas I earned. Like, I posted online, I did well in school, I'm nice to people. Ya'll're crazy! I just couldn't stand the noises in my room. They've even been made to make me feel suicidal when I heard things in my ear. Not really, but it was like I felt like I had to kill myself but knew it'd go away maybe. I could always ask for help hopefully. Perhaps, I wasn't all as great as made out to be then but they got in the way of any opportunity because of like age and time and money and people.
I can tell..
Ellen is sensitive to if I don't want Bella to be used as a model of
something better than me. Ellen supposedly wasn't using her as a
punishment. She won't say. She thinks me complaining caused this. I
don't want this to affect how I talk to everyone.
So..
..they outvoted someone supposedly because I was hitting my sofa this week mad at people being mean to me. They won't stop trying to stimulate me.. I've contacted help lines. I want it to stop. I want real love.
Apology
I should be more professional or presentable.
I was also supposed to not talk @ Ellen like that.
I was also supposed to not talk @ Ellen like that.
I just went out and said hi
to my Gramma and aunt and got some ice, too. Apparently, my brother also has things to do. I might go back out later. I feel sugar hyped. A bit tired. Wanna visit, but seems I wouldn't fit in.
Putting Ideas in My Head
They are being gross and said I'll never put my "babe" away. It sounds unattractive. These are criminals..
Why am I sitting here
having my dad's thoughts go through my mind? When will that *beep* leave me alone?
Problem
My dad acted like he wasn't "gahnna stap!" (Gonna stop.) I came out, and he was mosying around the kitchen and started vaccuuming when I came out of the bathroom. I was walking funny when he was being suggestive to me in the car after the movie this weekend. Why doesn't he just get outta my life like that? I don't need him. He doesn't do things for me.
Problem
They won't stop doing stuff for Ellen. Someone changed their name who might not post as much.
Disgusting
Another poster I liked supposedly was convinced to delete by someone who probably works for Tim Burton secretly because of Ellen DeGeneres. It's not funny. I can get mad and not have you all blow up. You shouldn't be monitoring stupid things like that. And quit acting like I'm not an adult. Yer all just old. And I'm right, you're wrong.
Saturday, August 9, 2014
Problem
My p****** is irritating me. On Twitter, they made it so 5 Tweets were there, and it made me think of when my dad put his hand on it when I was an infant. I don't like my dad like that! When I went to click there were 6 and 1 in the Celebrity list, which I follow.
They think
I'm mad about touching kids, but I don't have problems about kids. Someone must have lost their mind. True, I was hitting my stuff in my room, but kids today are much worse. They whine all the time. Still, it might not be all their own fault.
What can I do now?
At least no one was in the room.
I contacted for help, but once they seemed to cause it.
I contacted for help, but once they seemed to cause it.
What's SO bad about it?
Can't I ever have my life? What did you not really do to prevent it? You are sitting heer arousing me with little ticks. What am I supposed to do? I feel you're in my face staring at me.
Does it even matter
why to you? Or do I just have to put up with your bickering, cuz no one else does this? I don't believe in this. This is just you being racist. This is mean. You made me mad and didn't wanna help make me feel better, not by massaging me but by talking to me or something. You had nothing to say.
Friday, August 8, 2014
LEAVE ME ALONE
I SAID I WAS MAD STOP GETTING AT MNE
Ellen [deleted] [things she did gave me or what it seemed she did gave me] A life of shit here., SHe won
t stop That's it.
Ellen [deleted] [things she did gave me or what it seemed she did gave me] A life of shit here., SHe won
t stop That's it.
Post
I'm worried
Did the dishes.. a bit rough at times, nothing too "weird"
In my room hit my sofa and screamed..
Had punched.
I'm not a bad >person<
Frustrated
How my dad feels about my mom having cancer. People wanna give it to me to arouse me. See ya'll're wrong and such.
Weird
My dad was testing me, I didn't mean what I didn't mean. I am an adult, and ya'll're gonna d**.
What is the real problem?
You keep going psycho if I get mad at other people being mean to me. They need to be put in their place. My dad can't be onto me. I am not always gonna be living with him.
Old Posts
Crazy
Why'd I say that? I was making a point.
Problem
They won't stop getting the last word in. Sounds like Ellen, who's all comfortable and in good health.
Yer crazy.
Wednesday, August 6, 2014
Problem
I hate to actually post this, by my aunt is onto me and
wondering about her husband and "people in the area." So, I just told
her she was bothering me before, which she jerked the car all the time.
How immature! That lady is not a part of my, like, everyday life. She
is at me. I threw and hit things in my room or something. How would
she be so aware? That's crazy, my dad made me mad. No one else was
supposed to know. I did post it on my blog but maybe not.
Tuesday, August 5, 2014
I'm serious.
My dad won't refrain from being rude.
I went to get ice, and he started rubbing his hand and said like "whoop." Also said hi.
I went to get ice, and he started rubbing his hand and said like "whoop." Also said hi.
Sunday, August 3, 2014
Saturday, August 2, 2014
Friday, August 1, 2014
There's something I can't deal with.
They are playing around like it's a game to call any future kids a nigger and then said I did something cuz I was mad.
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