I even asked

just admit if you like her already.

I was nice to her.

She can't be bumped above me.

Strange

Why is she ever better than me?  It used to be no.

So

So, what, Ellen

Bella Thorne is Ellen DeGeneres?

What?

Why does she matter?  (If you don't know what I mean, it seems no one else does!  There, that's something some of you will take.)

So, what?

Let's just say he's shy and uses her as an excuse.

There's a lotta people in this world.

Think twice

about what I say.  It's not really offensive.  I have a thing where when I speak I mean it, I'm not trying to be extra sarcastic or anything NOR AT ALL OF COURSE.

So

Bella is being pleasured more than other people, and I'm being made to feel bad for no reason.

It's just not fun in the end.

Bella gets mad at me if I have a good time with someone yet always protrudes her deep side onto you.

So

I'd like to take back what I said, but I reached a point on Twitter where it came out so I put it all on here.

Anyone know what went wrong then?

Ellen got mad at me this week for not interpreting a post with Bella included to punish me.  I find it rather humiliating and dishonest.  I want to know more.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Re: What movies/TV shows are you all watching tonight?

Do you like Josh Groban? I do. I watched him host Rising Star. I'm a lucky girl.. I just posted some things that came up on Twitter on my 2nd blog. Things from the people there. You know the 1/2 Viet girl I like didn't win on the Mideastern part of the country tonight. I don't know what triggered me to talk about that after watching now, but lotta things being thrown at me. I guess I am just stating things and thinking out loud. You know, it seems like everyone's turned on me because of Ellen.

Now I Shit My Shit List

A few errors.. as for talking about it, nothing wrong with that.

So who was it then?

How can 1 get so infatuated

if I said someone was being disgusting?  Who cares how I said it, I can't always say things right the 1st time without writing it out.

You can't say

she's hotter than me then.  I'll have to fix this for my real blog.  I realize it's still online and I could delete it, but sometimes words like fat and attractive just come out..

Problem

I feel ignored because of her.  Why talk to ya'll?  Imma fight cuz you made everyone turn on me.

Sorry

I couldn't fix my writing.  What I mean is I looked more like a movie star I guess and she didn't but still was and now I don't though I've been trying to be 1..

So

I'm not talking to who you think I'd be when I say this.

Well

I brought it up on Twitter.  I am disgusted.  What can I say?  She just posted a suggestive picture that threatens my identity.  It's someone caringly feeding at a set sat at table.  You can at least notice I labeled this post shit.  I have to get my feelings out.  Why would you in the 1st place?  I know she's not just being nice.  Ya'll did that to my freedom of speech.  I was [more suited to be an actor] than her when she was an actor, and I haven't achieved cuza RACISM as an adult and now seem like the fat, ugly, sick 1.

I mean..

..if it's about her, where'd she go?  What are we supposed to do?  You can't monitor my privacy of thought.

Weird

Why keep telling me Bella Thorne is better than me, like teasing me?  That's not what I meant to say.  I can't think of how to say it.  I think you already know.  Everything was better before this replacing me came along.  Now I feel I'm in the dirt..

So, I said it cuz it was important I not hold back cuz something could happen to someone if I did it feels, that's all.  I'm naming Ellen cuz she started it.  Actually, I think it was a collective decision that she steal the, like, ideas I earned.  Like, I posted online, I did well in school, I'm nice to people.  Ya'll're crazy!  I just couldn't stand the noises in my room.  They've even been made to make me feel suicidal when I heard things in my ear.  Not really, but it was like I felt like I had to kill myself but knew it'd go away maybe.  I could always ask for help hopefully.  Perhaps, I wasn't all as great as made out to be then but they got in the way of any opportunity because of like age and time and money and people.

Bad and Bossy

Ya'll are mean to me and got nothing to say to me.

I can tell..

Ellen is sensitive to if I don't want Bella to be used as a model of something better than me.  Ellen supposedly wasn't using her as a punishment.  She won't say.  She thinks me complaining caused this.  I don't want this to affect how I talk to everyone.

So..

..they outvoted someone supposedly because I was hitting my sofa this week mad at people being mean to me.  They won't stop trying to stimulate me..  I've contacted help lines.  I want it to stop.  I want real love.

For whatever reasons..

..my Vine does not work.

Problem

They keep trying to stimulate me by being mean.

Apology

Sorry for m***********.  D:

Apology

I should be more professional or presentable.

I was also supposed to not talk @ Ellen like that.

I just went out and said hi

to my Gramma and aunt and got some ice, too.  Apparently, my brother also has things to do.  I might go back out later.  I feel sugar hyped.  A bit tired.  Wanna visit, but seems I wouldn't fit in.

Who cares about

Nell Burton and now my babies won't matter??

Putting Ideas in My Head

They are being gross and said I'll never put my "babe" away.  It sounds unattractive.  These are criminals..

They also are pretending to capture

my future son.

Why ARE you playing around

like my daughter is the result of something I started with you

MY DAD WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE

Why am I sitting here

having my dad's thoughts go through my mind?  When will that *beep* leave me alone?

Why is

Ellen trying to stimulate me and monitor me?  She can't monitor me.

Problem

My dad acted like he wasn't "gahnna stap!" (Gonna stop.) I came out, and he was mosying around the kitchen and started vaccuuming when I came out of the bathroom. I was walking funny when he was being suggestive to me in the car after the movie this weekend. Why doesn't he just get outta my life like that? I don't need him. He doesn't do things for me.

Yer just wasting my time.  I'm not being mean, but you think that.

A little insistent?

Think you can delete a major poster, too?

Problem

They won't stop doing stuff for Ellen.  Someone changed their name who might not post as much.

I was upset..

..but now I'm upset at the person behind the puppets.

Problem

These GODDAMN blacks won't stop acting like they're my race.

Problem

Also, there's a black poster following me.  She's trying to be seductive.

Disgusting

Another poster I liked supposedly was convinced to delete by someone who probably works for Tim Burton secretly because of Ellen DeGeneres.  It's not funny.  I can get mad and not have you all blow up.  You shouldn't be monitoring stupid things like that.  And quit acting like I'm not an adult.  Yer all just old.  And I'm right, you're wrong.