So..

..My dad did something again.

Anyone who restrains me from socializing is not worth it.

It's not okay that I don't feel okay, how dumb to wonder what's wrong, why I feel violent like I'm getting *** signals.  I was told something totally radical secretly.

What now?

Are you on horseback?  Trying to get me for being upset?  This is shit.  This is nothing.  Get outta my life now!

I was upset in my room.  What right do you have to kill off my family like this?  Someone did something to me, and no one cares how I feel.  I didn't do anything illegal.  I just felt like I needed something to hit and scream.  I did it in my room so no one could know what I needed to do.  I still feel mad.  I didn't do anything.  Get outta my life.

When I say

Old, I mean older, not elderly old.  I mean big and pompous.. and I don't consider fat a replacement for something good.  We were gonna have a family turkey, too.

Problem

Get my dad, they won't stop trying to stimulate a certain part for getting mad in my room.  I don't want my old aunt.

This is a blog where I get out what I need, even though language gets in the way, and anger.

Problem

Because my dad knew I was mad I think my aunt is coming for 4 days.  They are pretending it is for another reason.

How Disgusting

My parents, 1st dad, used their hand|s to place something over my ******* symbolically.

They want to reiterate I am trash like other people act now.

You don't do this to Bella Thorne.

I can see them rolling around in happy m***********.

I meant it

as in why is it you hurt me but leave her be?

Fine

Why don't you hurt Ellen?

THEY SAID 2 YEARS

THEY WON'T GO AWAY

Problem

Ellen, she keeps having glitches on my computer throughout the day to stimulate me.

This is serious..

..I can't keep serving people by telling what they do to me.  Let's just get him.

YOU CAN'T JUST THROW MY LIFE AWAY

I STAYED AWAY FROM HIM FOR MY SUPPER

STOP IT

I CAN STOMP MY FOOT AND NOT BE KILLED

My dad started it.  I found out.  And you better listen you racist.

Problem

My dad keeps getting at me.  He's insane.

My dad turned off a private part.

Problem

I feel bothered.  Irritated physically.

Problem

My dad has the ^need^ to arrange my private parts to my Gramma's toenails.

Problem

My dad came in and my part is too stimulated, like heated up but doesn't feel as it should.

Problem

My blog is loading slowly.  I played with my mouse on it before.  People are fakely breaking all my technology, stealing my socks and toenail pullers (clippers.)

I'm watching about animals

that live together of different species, and I'm about to get a hamster for my beta fish.  Coming up is like lions taking care of prey species baby animals.

Problem

The messages are not showing up in my Yahoo!, just in the popups.  I have to click on that, too.  You have no right to do this to me!  Quit acting like I'm really a bad person for some unknown reason.

Let's just say

Ellen is just mean to me and lies about who I am.  Why do I keep getting other people's who I know have contact with her's nonsense?  I say I don't like it, and then I just keep getting "more."  Like, if I get a little mad she has to make me feel worse.  What about her?  She seems happy.  My life was fine in ways until she did this.  People are trying to be suggestive and knowing of me.  Like, it's not just, "I don't like Christina," it's like let's dig in and do any possible mean thing we can to her and sorta in a backhanded manner so that no one ever really cares to talk to her.

Look

I don't want to be involved in this.  Why can you be so suggestive and to people I care about?

NOOO

They said 1 house.. made me think of a boy in England.

WOULD YA QUIT WASTING MY TIME I WANT EVERYTHING YOU DO TO ME ON THIS BLOG AND I DON'T WANT MORE

Problem

They are making me think of my Gramma.  I was thinking if I was rich from my singing or if I got in a movie, I could give her money 1st, and Ellen would find that a topic for talking, stuck up.  She is pessimistic.  Also, they think it's important my dad just answered my text as I finished this or something.

My Gramma seems to feel bad.  Why can't anyone like .. like the people she knew were mean to her and died I think .. cuza that N word thing with my dad.

She was mean to me, though.  I feel sorry for her and wanna help, though, cuz she's like lonelier and doesn't even seem as content as she could.  I don't wanna complain about older people in general, but they were acting this out to me.  Like, the part when she's mean.  I am careful there, but they are now out to get me.  Thanks to my dad.  You said Tim Burton wasn't to blame?

Problem

They keep doing stuff, they did something weird to a post I got in my mail, and the 2nd time I clicked it said it was read, and it said it was like family, someone black because of being black but also who is being wacky.  What about white people?  I never get to be with white people.  Like before!

I had a hard time with prayer.

I just feel so agitated and wanna be alone like I was before.

YUP

Ellen gaped at me when she thought up me feeling love from my mom when she's the 1 who's hurt.  Yup.  She's involved in my family.  No lie.  She is judging me with race, but I deny that.  Your mom thinks I'm fine.  You're the 1 who apparently ^needed help^.  You think because you need help that everyone does.  No, I don't!  Look at someone else with mixed race and help them instead!  Instead, you have all these full blacks and people flown in from Vietnam or Taiwan.  Famous kids who don't know what they're doing.  Putting on quite a spectacle of a show in retrospect to what you claim to uphold to.  You don't talk about mixed people who need help.  You just use me to ruin.  So, what, can't admit you're like a biracial and can be put in the same clump as everyone else?  I'm sorry if this offends you, but I'm working on being nicer..  Instead of just blowing up.  You know, I hit my table twice today but not too hard and sorta on a whim.  I also just realized I thought of something violent.  I closed the door hard 2 times at least, as well.  I will say an Our Father, Hail Mary, and Glory Be.  What can I do about it now?  Just think it was bad and learn to not have a temper.  They wouldn't give me medicine for it!  I have it for depression and schizophrenia and was doing fine.

PROBLEM

WHY DOESN'T ANYTHING SATISFY AGAINST YOU

AND THERE'S ELLEN

PROBLEM

ELLEN WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE.  A POSTER OLDER THAN ME TURNED ON ME.  SHE ALSO WANTED TO SAY I WAS LIKE SOMEONE IN A WAY I'M NOT AND DON'T WANNA BE.  SHE IS TRYING TO AROUSE ME THAT I'M RACIALLY SHIT.

Problem

My mom made a locking motion to shit me with a picture of an irresponsible black lady on a magazine.

I've counted

numerous things that Ellen could have got off the shelf, my fav liverwurst no longer served, etc.

STOP

THEY SAID I SHOULDN'T POST TO GOOD POSTERS ON IMDB.  NO, YOU ARE THE 1 WHO IS REALLY BOTHERING ME.  I CAN POST THERE.  STOP TELLING ME I'M AN INVALID.  YA'LL JUST RACE BLIND.  I DON'T WANNA WASTE MY TIME TALKING TO YOU!

Someone told me to get a punching bag.

I use my sofa.

Problem

They are playing around with me, now.

I told you, I don't want to talk to you.

Problem

I was looking at a pic of an Asian kid and now I have a new follower on Twitter.

I didn't mean anything..

..bad against anyone but that I felt bothered.  I don't like people to collect my "mistakes" from the past.  Why can't you just talk about it?

THEY WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE AND KEEP ADDING MESSAGES THAT I WANT OTHERS TO KNOW THEY DID, THEY ARE TWISTING THEM LIKE THEY ARE STATEMENTS AND NOT INSULTS

PROBLEM

ELLEN WON'T STOP AND SHE GOT THEM TO CURSE AT ME!  HA!  YOU DID IT.  I SAID ELLEN DID SOMETHING, NOT ME.

PROBLEM

GET THAT ELLEN TO QUIT

YA'LL DON'T SUFFER THIS SHIT

ELLEN HAS A GIRL FROM RISING STAR ATTACKING ME

THEY MADE THE COLOR UNSELECT WHEN I DID IT

STOP - THEY MADE MY BROWSER SHRINK FOR THE BLOG WHEN I PULLED IT UP

Problem

My dad tried to stimulate me..

MY DAD IS BOTHERING ME

HE WAS TOLD I WAS PLAYIING WITH THE MOUSE AND LOADING THINGS ON THE COMPUTER ALL INTO HIMSELF LIKE "I'VE NEVER SEEN ANYTHING LIKE THAT" WELL GO AWAY!!

I SAID

STOP IT

SHOULD I JUST SAY YOU'RE "BAD" INSTEAD?

STOP TIT

YOU CAN'T KEEP TELLING ME WHAT TO DO AND BOTHERING ME IN MY ROOM YOU

PROBLEM

GET THAT ELLEN OUT  SHE IS SAYING MY MOM IS GOOD AND IM NOT

YALL STOP YOU CURSED AT ME

So..

..I can't tell anyone to leave me alone, so I just get mad and make loud noises with myself.. These people won't leave.  What can I do?

My dad made an excuse to come in here.

I TOLD YOU TO LEAVE ME ALONE

Problem

STOP  YOU QUIT PLAYING WITH THE COMPUTER

My dad can't call me Asian.  I don't like it.  Go away if you don't understand.  STOP.

Problem

My dad just came in and seemed to not think of my mom, neither.

Problem

All these people want is to be mean to me.  I might call the Hope line or the police.. the forum.

Problem

They acted with the mouse loading like someone was being silly sticking out their tongue.  Learn to talk like a person.

Problem

I didn't wanna talk about this.  Also, they won't leave me alone about my Gramma..  STOP

Problem

I got secret messages of disrespect to my mom, showing my Gramma showing her toenail like my teacher did all tacky, when something was about her and she was being nice to me though hurt, like I didn't deserve her being comforting to me.  Ellen will just slide up and say she's sad and not admit to what she and someone else has done.

Because

Why work on something like me?  You know, I studied to do Music Education myself.

QUIT TURNING PEOPLE ON ME

WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM

Why do you send me messages?

They aren't nice.

I'm not the animal.

Stop the messages.

I don't want them.

How Annoying

They are playing with the number of seconds since last post.  It symbolizes Ellen hypnotizing a boy from England like it's all ticklish but dehumanizing.

I said stop.

Why do you guys keep doing this?

So

Ellen is mean to people who are nice.

Problem

They won't stop bringing up that I had violent thoughts when being surrounded by attacking thoughts.  I'm about to buy something for $3.99, and they said it wouldn't be like this in 3 years.

STOP BRINGING UP THE PAST

TO YOUR UNDESERVING ADVANTAGE

STOP IT

They are cursing at me.

Isn't it funny..

..I just axed what to do when people surround me with negativity.

More Shit

I watched Inside Riding Star, and this black guy was rubbing his hands and made it look tacky with short nails, and everyone felt their hand change, too.

Bothered

I just went for a jog, and my iPodTouch when I touch the screen won't show me the song that's playing.  I was able to do it by pressing the on|off button.

I came home and didn't sound happy, and my dad said, "Good."

I know Ellen did this, but my brother was sending me mean secret messages so I thought the violence out in my head 1st only to be bothered again by|for it.  I did come home and actually try to fix it, but it's not like I'm gonna really commit a crime.  I didn't think of it as I would.  You don't care if anyone bothers me.  You're a sinner.  Did you know sinners go to Hell?  I guess your faith is not based in the Jewish religion.  I can see that.  Was I really sinning?  No.  Was it the best thing I could do?  Of course not.  That's all that matters.  If someone didn't do anything to you, is it wrong to not have self-control?  Yes, it is wrong not to have self-control.  You let other people get away with it cuz you think I'm not white.  Well, that's not true.  It's too bad you don't accept it.

I do blame..

..I felt a little my toes poof like someone on the Soapbox.

Problem

I still don't feel good.

Problem

These people won't leave me alone.

Problem

My Paint is starting to mess up with the mouse.

He won't stop.

He's acting like blowing up my son and like my daughter can't write.  Like something breaking.

Problem

My brother is relaying sarcasticness, "that this is all next week."  No, you wouldn't stop trying to irritate me.

Watching You

I have to go to the bathroom but wanted to say I think you are being mean to me really on purpose, sometimes, not just like wandering around.  I made my post about reading the Bible for forgiveness, and the page took a certain while to load.

Problem

These people are being fresh popping up in my life every so often.  Let's stop chanting Ellen did it and get to the brunt of it.  The way a page loads or any little thing..  It seems I get daily new glitches.

Also

I told my brother he was sloshing me around and for a weird reason he started getting his 1st shake.

Problem

My brother kept eluding to Ellen DeGeneres, so I was kicking in the car some cuz he was annoying and then he asked me what was wrong and said he didn't like my tone.

I couldn't help to avoid that but to imagine violence.  I finally stopped, but he's been sending secret threats, like about my future kids not mattering.  Something is wrong with him.  Seems like my oldest aunt got into him.

I made some loud noises.  I was upset at people when we got our ice cream.  Luckily, we have some cake which will make me happy.

They just made the words space or enter fast to annoy me.  These tacky people watching me!

sorri

sorry depp

y r u mad @ me - i didn't do anything against you that was innocent.  those bad things?  i never disrespected you.  you all just pretended.

y r u mad

THEY RELOADED MY YOUTUBE PAGE I TOLD YOUY TO STOP YOU CRIMINAL STOP IT YOU'LL GO TO JAIL FOR A LONG TIME

THEY SAID MY DAUGHTER WAS IN A CAPSUL OF FART

LISTEN

I TOLD YOU TO STOP TAKING OUT ANGER ON ME STOP STIMULATING ME YOU SINNER

I TOLD YOU TO STOP STOP CHANING MY LIFE

CAN'T YOU TELL WHAT I TOLD YOU  STOP IT

YOURE MAKING ME PHYSICAL

I SAID STOP

Problem

I can arrest you for that.  You made me say Depp was mean.  Leave me alone!  I SAID IT.

Problems

Why should I care about what others do?  This guy online posted something about pulling over 200 teeth from a boy, just playing it safe but hurting me.  What is Johnny Depp's problem?  Does he feel guilty?  He never was there for me really.  Is it my dad again cuz I won't let things like this happen with everyone I like?

These people are acting like they're touching me!  STOP.

Why should I care?  I think he's mean.

Problem

I'm being attacked that my kids won't go for attractive people.  I just said Johnny Depp did something.  No one cares, "get a life.."

So

What does Josh Groban hold against me?  I saw him sing with the little 5-year-old, and he seemed to have hatred.  Ellen can't put noises in my room.  That's what I was mad at!

THEY WON'T STOP

Problem

They literally just hurt me.

Problem

They keep messing with everything in the house for a joke?  Why doesn't someone try cornering you for a change?

They won't shut up.

They want my Gramma in a messed up way to be the sole mom of my daughter, I think.

Problem

They are teasing me with my Gramma in a way I don't like and acting smart.  Once they said I was "Damb."  Or "dumb."

Problem

Ellen won't quit bothering me.  My keyboard is delayed on my browser, and someone nice on IMDb knows apparently.

I don't even care

about Ellen's creative little insult messages.

Ya'll're

mean and just wasting my time.  I didn't do anything wrong.  Ya'll're mean to me anyway.

Problem

I don't like these noises in my room, they're really tacky and annoying.  They send bad messages and don't listen to me.  Quit ruining my online experience.

Problem

They are threatening me about animals who are white, and I wanted a white dog once.

Okay

I'm like freaking out.

Problem

Chloe Grace Moretz is implying Josh Groban is better than me ***-wise.

They keep bothering me

STOP IT I KNOW ELLEN DID IT IT STARTED WITH HER

I imagined my dad innocent like I liked him and they kept making these weird noises that hinted a kind of m***********.

You're just

wanting me to be miserable and seeing how I feel and what I say then just to turn my down like you're better and no one desires me but I others.

You have some weird fantasy..

..that my world has become you

How can you justify this?

Try suffering.

Well

Josh just doesn't really seem to like me.

Problem

Why is Bella's life so good?

MAD

THIS BELLA THING IS CUZA ELLEN PUNISHING ME SO I WILL NOT ACCEPT IT

Why?  I'm going by Feeling and not as good Thinking.  Haven't I had enough of you all?  See.. you can even feel that's "what" Ellen did, regardless of that she did Bella or whatever.

There's something else I don't like.

I said that we can't get rid of Bella Thorne.  I didn't blame him.

YOU WON'T STOP TORTURING ME WITH THAT GIRL.

So, what..

..you think you can change me?

How will I get my experience online..

..with these kooky characters watching me all the time?!

How retarded

Try to give me cancer for Bella Thorne?  Is this the real Nell Burton?  You just wanna prove yourself to the world and don't care about me and my existence.

I AM NOT TO BE TREATED WORSE FOR TIM BURTON'S PRESENCE.

You can't make me

care about someone when I already do.

Apology

for saying that stupid girl, but I meant it in the detatched way and not that she's stupid, as I said in the post.

How dare you

tell me me talking to someone famous is ruining it for someone else.

Why should I even care?

@aparnapkin I'll trade you for your cherry tomatoes
— josh groban (@joshgroban) July 23, 2014

He wants me to just starve.. This is retarded.

I HATE CHASING CELEBS

THANKS DAD

SHIT

Why does my frickin dad ruin everything?!

You even think

when I didn't talk about that I implied it and went wild against me.  Too bad you don't have intelligent followers.

Look

I can't stand that person being on Bella Thorne's side every time they say something good.  I don't want to come there to read that.  I don't want it on my mind.  I like the person, but they are using her as a tool.

I see..

..you don't care about the bodies you threw away.  You're stupid, pretend person.  You can't talk.  No one talks to me.  You all talk to that stupid girl, not meaning she is stupid, but I know it's gonna come out.

Problem

My brother is being mean.  Let's just curse out all involved in hurting me.  I will tell.

Thanks for

making my life now my shit list.

Should I call the cops?

You won't shut up in my room?

I am making stand.

You all won't let me be comfortable.

IF YOU ALL WANT SOMETHING

WHY DON'T YOU ALL GET IT?  Oh, don't like all caps, too?  That's so overrated?  I don't wanna waste my time for nothing.

No I don't

wanna sit here and pull things apart on someone's Twitter each time I try to understand what's going on.  No one cares about what I say.  This person is posting whimpy little things day in and day out.  Come on, is that all you gonna do?  What happened to before?  This is so stupid I can't even post it on my real blog!

Why won't

you guys fuckin' stop bothering me cuz when I get upset you get upset.

I could hurt you technically, but I am not.  You're not proving anything.  You're just lame-ole shit Orlando.  I didn't mean any 1 of you are shit.  I said it for some reason that came out.. and it wasn't that.