I was being nice to Bella Thorne, and suddenly Ellen made everything about her. It only is nice in that it's someone I like. However, she has an attitude about it toward me. I thought it was something to be left alone, but I can still hear her laugh.
Also, I was thinking of the lyrics of Jackie Evancho singing from Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory, "There is no.." like sarcastic like some fat lady in her 40s saying me understanding something or like feeling okay is "no." Everyone in the world is like that to me, but I reject it all. My only escape is if I find myself in the world of other young actresses.
Think about this, too, I follow Bella Thorne, and Ellen DeGeneres thinks I'm crap to her. Also, I know Bella Thorne's mom thinks in a forta fun yet tacky way that, "This is it, you, Bella, my daughter, though I don't think you're all ready, are it, the best person, you replaced Christina along with all her dreams and so much more."
I also got the message from an old theater teacher Ginny Kopf and Ellen DeGeneres that even though the world likes me I should be thrown to the floor and not paid attention to in a harsh manner. They think they are *** oriented enough to please others while the problem being they said I'm not and were mean to me and possibly others. I think they just go to what annoys people rather than acting 1 way. Like, they think I'm a show off by being nice, but that makes no sense. They can't say I'm too old to be the daughter of a sane person their age or style.
Also, I get people sending me messages through my dad, like it's Josh Groban, while they do whatever they want like for me to be treated nice I have to be treated bad and not them like before when it was hard cuza how they were. Maybe, nothing was wrong, but I wasn't mean, so don't attack me. Some people went ahead and messed up. Like, ooh, Christina did something. I don't give a **** if she is mad.
I can just see Ellen saying my post is crap and therefore I am and therefore she is right and to be mean and she said she wasn't. She kinda ruined my relationship with my parents.
Why if I have something to talk about do people like Ellen act like a glass building just fell apart? Part of this was to explain and sorta apologize. There is nothing wrong with talking that I would need to be punished, but it would be nice not to have it happen.
If this is so boring start doing something interesting. Start being actors or artists or something yourself for starters. Some people don't think about me in private but are nice when they see me. I was able to live in the world before, and I am able to now. I don't know why people like talking to me. Maybe, they aren't. Maybe, they wanna make fun of me, but I don't want that.