LEAVE ME THE *BEEP* ALONE

Stop picking at every little thing that happens.

Problem

I will not accept this Ellen stalking and making fun of me like it's okay cuz it's not.

Disturbed

IMDb will make us login with our email and not screenname on Sep. 1st.  Ellen probably told them to do that.

Problem

My dad isn't keeping his distance and always pops up in a bad way.  They are telling him when I come in and out of rooms.

I mean

it came up.  I don't know if I think it matters, but it came up.  Oh well, if ya'll like her, I mean yea you should.  I never said not to.

I bet IMDb

put me in a bad mood when I woke up.

Fine

Keep talking to Bella if that's what ya'll like.  I might not fit in.  She seems to feel very highly of herself compared to most other people..

So..

..It's too late, but I couldn't think of what else to say and I didn't mean it and take it back.. something no on ever did for me.

I'm so worried

about all I ended up writing last night a bit tired.

I was making a point that Bella isn't hotter than me cuz when she started acting she seemed less turned on, not as uppity like a kid usually is, etc.  It's like seeing Jackie Evancho using the pleasure of luxury to act as though she deserves to look better than us and maybe it's not because we don't have money like that from singing.

I'm worried how it will be interpreted that Bella is a punishment.  How does that feel for her?  Her mom made her feel good about it.  I can't say I like it cuz I know it's a punishment, but I try to be a good fan.  Ya'll aren't fans.  What am I supposed to do with Bella?  She doesn't seem to always wanna be nice my way.

And about her pictuer of the kitchen table feeding, I mean, I know she did it when I started talking about her, so it's also a "punishment."

Now, I was always told I was well-behaved, so ya'll're really taking advantage of me.  I can't think about this.  It's a bit weird.

Someone is so hooked onto me saying she was disgusting, she's become a part of my everyday life at least twice.  I meant she did it on purpose.

Okay, gotta go to the bathroom.

Back to Bed

You may have seen my edits on my shit blog.  I was too tired to figure out what to even do last night or to get up, and my back still hurts, my spine.  It's too bad..  I did say why though before.  So, it's like, what else could you say.  Well, I found out.  Usually, I just don't say it, didn't know why I did.  I just noticed that it came up on Twitter, so I put it in my shit blog.

Did you see how strangely satisfied they are now?  I don't want this shit on my back, thinking of weird stuff all the time.  Ellen is in a fantasy land and doesn't know where she is.  She's tacky and foreboding to me.  Ya'll keep acting like Bella is important to make it interesting and I'm in trouble.

Why would I sit here and do crappy mental gymnastics

of how I'm not really in trouble with Bella?

I found you out.

You better stop doing this to punish me.

Edit

I brought it up on Twitter.  I am disgusted.  What can I say?  She just posted a suggestive picture that threatens my identity.  It's someone caringly feeding at a set sat at table.  You can at least notice I labeled this post shit.  I have to get my feelings out.  Why would you in the 1st place?  I know she's not just being nice.  Ya'll did that to my freedom of speech.  I was [more suited to be an actor] than her when she was an actor, and I haven't achieved cuza RACISM as an adult and now seem like the fat, ugly, sick 1.

How do I know

the acting competition is not already set for me to be turned back?

So.

What about old Bella?  How did this catch on?

Fine

If you like her that's fine but you don't.

Why

is "that" Ellen attacking me?!

If you are following me

sorry if you catch hints of "sarcasm" but you always post like that.  I didn't want to suggest that of anyone.

You know you are a lot like her racially..

..so go play.  Really.  Don't just whine about it to me!

The thing is..

..I like other people getting attention.  This is something else.  This is telling me I'm not what I was cracked up to be..

Sad

I don't care about that girl, but what if she's the reason Mannipat Malloy went home early?

I was attracted to her as a fan.