Shit List

Thursday, August 14, 2014

Correction

We already know you do it. What's that mean? Just accept it's shit?

STOP IT

I SAID I KNOW YOU REFRESH YOURSELF THE NEXT DAY BUT YOU'RE THE ONE WHO'S MEAN WHO ARE YOU ANYWAY!

NO ONE AGREES AND KNOWS YOU DO IT

THEY WON'T STOP

ELLEN STOP IT YOU *BEEP* I DON'T CARE WHO YOU THINK YOU ARE IF YOU DID IT YOU BETTER STOP

[I thought and posted.. You pieces of shit!] :(

Not saying what, but I got kicked outta my major because maybe of a C. Now, I am 28 and I have nowhere to go in my life apparently. 1 successful year of college. Thanks Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, but I ain't no actor, neither. I can't experience affection, neither. I need something to propel my life. I can't even expect that in a husband.

This is shit

My parents aren't like 90.

You all waste my life

I'm gonna die someday.

Problem

I'm getting negative feedback on IMDb, something gross I watched.. GET AWAY.

Quit wasting my time and my life!!

I Swear

I am getting negative messages Ellen won't own up to. Everyone is acting like they are her.

I didn't mean

to sound vicious to anyone really. I just felt vicious in general. I just feel people are secretly punishing me and that my dad is suddenly abusive without saying what and how I can get him to stop, like it's funny he won't.

This person won't stop timing when the page loads to make me feel guilty. What makes you in Hell think this is okay?

Problem

They keep making my mouse move other ways just because I told them to stop bothering me with clicks in my room which they won't unless I wear earplugs which my block my alarm.

Before, when I played with my mouse on my blog, my dad barged in and left and then my blog loads slowly when I post, to minimize and stuff.

I don't wanna feel

threatened about that girl. Don't make me wait around and call me a holdup.. My dad expressed some message was specifically meant for me in a flippant way, like it is but then again it won't be answered to. Like some reason will be made up and I have to end up putting up with it. I obviously mean no offense but some defense. It's not that big a deal to some people, but this is a message I got. My dad continues to believe I am in trouble when he feels like it. I am not in more trouble than other kids's attitudes and I don't do anything to be in trouble. Wanna make me have cancer? Are you trying to turn me into a murderer? They seem to sympathize with me.

I realize it must be scary I just used the word "murderer" in the same post and paragraph as other things and people, but I mean no real harm. In fact, my brother's dog just died. They stopped walking him and stuff, like my aunt's dog dying a long time ago, a police dog. He didn't bark to come in and does not come in usually when I ask. I guess I just forgot. I just got a hamster, too, and can't take it out when I clean cuz it's a quick and could escape. It has 2 rooms. Someone else in my family's grandpa, unrelated, just died, as well.

I don't mean anyone harm, but no one has responded to the fact that I am considered well-behaved other than this foolishness, whereas I know they are jealous they are not. I can't do anything to appease my life. Imagine that. Pretending I deserve something like this. You want me with my dad so he can shit at me and diss me. He can lie and I can't seem to do anything back. I can, but then I can't. He's not famous, he can shit if he likes and I'm in the same house. No one'll know.. No one will be able to alter their situation. I suggest ya'll get OUT of my life, ya'll so confused and all and scared I can make my own decisions. Ya'll aren't helping. I see myself dead in some ditch.

Might be scary I said I am afraid I will be killed in this, while you're in the same post and paragraph, as well. I mean no one harm. I feel upset that there's the idea I need to be close to my dad in a way I don't like and that there's a secret punishment ya'll are doing but won't own up to. You can't do this to me. Ya'll're disgusting. Who the Hell do you think you are?

Twitter

Some of the most purest creatures in the world are ones that dont speak... Rescue/save/adopt today @NevadaSPCA #PreventAnimalCruelty
— Zak Bagans (@Zak_Bagans) August 14, 2014

My dad keeps leaving me

excessive annoying messages. He snuck 1 in about my mom and zebra patterns, which his youngest sister likes. My Gramma saw my bedding and was like do you like that? Like get away!!

Problem

I was playing with my mouse while on Blogger, and my dad came in my room and now my blog is always slow to load when I post.

Problem

They are saying since I stopped following Bella Thorne mobiley on Twitter that no one older gives a shit about me.

It might be Ellen. So, don't make fun of people who are nice to me.

Problem

I'm being followed with annoying messages that make me feel fragile and stared at.

Problem

It affected my audition practicing.

What's with

having famous people like Obama visit the college campus when that freak banned me from stepping foot on campus until I get a note?

Problem

I needed something printed out to audition to act, and my dad didn't do it. He didn't print out something else before, neither, I forgot about, from CUA|for UCF. I just want him to stop possessing me all of a sudden. He's mean all the time. I swear, I didn't do anything.

Problem

I don't like the ticks, they are making me tired. I feel them channeling me to m*********.

Problem

Why do you need that incessant joking around from me? Guess you don't wanna hear the word satisfaction, but this is the shit blog of mine. You can't hurt me and tell me what to do.

What I Mean Is

It seems like great satisfaction has been taken flubbing over my strong confidence being interviewed about my behavior. It seems to have been the only thing I've heard this much.

And there's no rule in the world

that says that and I can't take it back just to be safe but not really sorry?

What now? Are you gonna hold me accountable for something that I said that wasn't even wrong. It's been in my head.

So

What is up with the satisfaction trap? I don't care what you say if it's wrong. Anyone wanna help me get away from these people? I had to tell what it was.

Problem

Ginny is the devil if this is so.

I don't want your creative attacks.

STOP IT

I can say what I like. You can't turn me into other people I don't like. Nothing more needs to be said. You're *beep* I don't listen to you. I can tell on you. I already feel it in my body and private.

I don't mean to cross any boundary lines..

..but I am disgusted or whatever at your satisfaction of punishing me in whatever way for being forceful when the people were disciplining me at Valencia.

I have no desire

to get back at you, but you are hurting me, and that is just bloody disgusting you can't take me having my own attitude and own self-esteem and be a force of power representing myself to dummies like you. You wanna bow your head?

I stand by what I say.

DISGUSTING

You get mad if when they interview me to kick me out that I have a lotta self-esteem and put a crazy lady in the mental hospital like that's my punishment? An older tacky lady? Now, I'm back on pills and we have little money? Wow, you sure got your shit in the biscuits!

at 3:47 AM
No one thinks you have the right to do this. Put an annoying lady with me in the hospital cuz you can't take a shit of my forceful attitude, you racist.

I SAID STOP IT. WAS THAT ABOUT THE BOY IN ENGLAND? YOU'RE TACKY AND A NUISANCE.

I bet you all did it, too. Someone did. Why are the people in my room all talking like that?

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

Problem

I got a life Disney e-mail after talking about a disgusting black poster.

GO AWAY I AIN'T KEEPING UP WITH YOUR SHIT SPAM

So

Why is my dad shitting that Ellen shits at me and that it's true?

Problem

Ellen may like her, but I enjoy calling people like her a spoiled brat.

Problem

Why is Bella suddenly in my life every day?

So

by Ellen I meant in real life she doesn't want me to calculate shit, but behind the walls it sounds like that's what she's dished out. Oh well. I hope she finds some friends.

I didn't even get to apologize

me saying stop it went outta hand last night and it hurt your feelings, but I didn't wanna sit there and calculate the messages inspired by Ellen so I just found that stopped it. I can't seem to avoid thinking that when I hear it. I can't leave or anything..

Yea, all I said was stop it.. :/

They keep coming in

like they're right. Maybe it wasn't a big deal, but neither was what I did.

Problem

The mouse keeps being funny.

You can't sit here and test me like a lion

all in my face to not get upset and say something in my head.

Seriously

Don't give anyone the satisfaction of your tacky messages!

Problem

They made it sound like talking!

Problem

I said they were sending me stupid messages and threats!

YOU GET THE BEEP OUTTA MY LIFE

STOP THREATENING ME

STOP

MAKING THINGS HARDER

Stop

Giving me stupid things to think about when you click and do things on the computer. Then stare at me thinking about it. All up in my face. Get a life.

Well, this was bad.

I have other things to keep my mind on. }:|

You don't care

if I wanna hit something so gET OUT

WHY THE HELL DO YOU EVEN CARE YOU *BEEP* YOU MADE MY *BEEP* AUNT COME AND GRAMMA WHO SAID TO CALL

STOP

I'M TIRED OF YOUR SHIT

STOP
tHE?Y SOTI PS ia diff post of her

I SEE THE POST

STOP

They wont' stop amking my blog load longer

STOP

I WANNA HIT SOMETHING

GET YOUR SHIT OUTTA HERE YOU *BEEP*

THEY HID THE POST

Problem

Stop threatening me with other posters with my future kids on the Soapbox.

YA'LL STOP RUINING MY RELATIONSHIPS FOR SCUM OF THE EARTH - GET MY DAD OUT A MY LIFE LIKE THIS

THEY'RE PIX

GET OUT ELLEN

They had an unusual set of posts

look like a locked hand. GET OUT!!

Problem

More shit to do with it. I started liking my fish more and need to clean its water soon.. seems so soon. ELLEN DID IT.

I know

Ellen would have wanted it.

What about

my brother waking up? Why?

I hate this.

I have to put on music.

I TOLD THEM TO STOP STILL

THEY ARE MESSING WITH MY MOUSE

It was

Ellen. I am not gonna sit here and think about the clicks in my face.

Where'd they go?

Get

Ellen out, too, cuz she would literally take my dad outta my life altogether.

They won't stop watching me in private. I need my life without my dad's shit.

Oh No

I wanna hit my desk..

They just made my mouse delayed.

MY DAD WON'T STOP BEING SHIT AND MEAN TO ME

Problem

They keep getting me to say STOP and I feel drained.

GET MY DAD OUTTA MY LIFE - YOU - GIT - HE'S BEING DISGUSTING

Problem

My brother also woke up.

DISGUSTING

Problem

Another message from my dad! Can't he shut up?

They're all in my face. Ya'll don't care, it doesn't happen to you.

Problem

I told them to stop, they're making me think, and I'm trying to sleep. Then, I heard my noisemaker get hypnotic. I bet Ellen has something to do with this. I know she did it. Ya'll just stop.

Also, they make my blog slow because I was playing around with the mouse on it. So, they are ruining my stuff.

Monday, August 11, 2014

LEAVE ME THE BEEP ALONE

Stop picking at every little thing that happens.

Problem

I will not accept this Ellen stalking and making fun of me like it's okay cuz it's not.

Disturbed

IMDb will make us login with our email and not screenname on Sep. 1st. Ellen probably told them to do that.

Problem

My dad isn't keeping his distance and always pops up in a bad way. They are telling him when I come in and out of rooms.

I mean

it came up. I don't know if I think it matters, but it came up. Oh well, if ya'll like her, I mean yea you should. I never said not to.

I bet IMDb

put me in a bad mood when I woke up.

Fine

Keep talking to Bella if that's what ya'll like. I might not fit in. She seems to feel very highly of herself compared to most other people..

So..

..It's too late, but I couldn't think of what else to say and I didn't mean it and take it back.. something no on ever did for me.

I'm so worried

about all I ended up writing last night a bit tired.

I was making a point that Bella isn't hotter than me cuz when she started acting she seemed less turned on, not as uppity like a kid usually is, etc. It's like seeing Jackie Evancho using the pleasure of luxury to act as though she deserves to look better than us and maybe it's not because we don't have money like that from singing.

I'm worried how it will be interpreted that Bella is a punishment. How does that feel for her? Her mom made her feel good about it. I can't say I like it cuz I know it's a punishment, but I try to be a good fan. Ya'll aren't fans. What am I supposed to do with Bella? She doesn't seem to always wanna be nice my way.

And about her pictuer of the kitchen table feeding, I mean, I know she did it when I started talking about her, so it's also a "punishment."

Now, I was always told I was well-behaved, so ya'll're really taking advantage of me. I can't think about this. It's a bit weird.

Someone is so hooked onto me saying she was disgusting, she's become a part of my everyday life at least twice. I meant she did it on purpose.

Okay, gotta go to the bathroom.

Back to Bed

You may have seen my edits on my shit blog. I was too tired to figure out what to even do last night or to get up, and my back still hurts, my spine. It's too bad.. I did say why though before. So, it's like, what else could you say. Well, I found out. Usually, I just don't say it, didn't know why I did. I just noticed that it came up on Twitter, so I put it in my shit blog.

Did you see how strangely satisfied they are now? I don't want this shit on my back, thinking of weird stuff all the time. Ellen is in a fantasy land and doesn't know where she is. She's tacky and foreboding to me. Ya'll keep acting like Bella is important to make it interesting and I'm in trouble.

Why would I sit here and do crappy mental gymnastics

of how I'm not really in trouble with Bella?

I found you out.

You better stop doing this to punish me.

Edit

I brought it up on Twitter. I am disgusted. What can I say? She just posted a suggestive picture that threatens my identity. It's someone caringly feeding at a set sat at table. You can at least notice I labeled this post shit. I have to get my feelings out. Why would you in the 1st place? I know she's not just being nice. Ya'll did that to my freedom of speech. I was [more suited to be an actor] than her when she was an actor, and I haven't achieved cuza RACISM as an adult and now seem like the fat, ugly, sick 1.