YUP

Ellen gaped at me when she thought up me feeling love from my mom when she's the 1 who's hurt.  Yup.  She's involved in my family.  No lie.  She is judging me with race, but I deny that.  Your mom thinks I'm fine.  You're the 1 who apparently ^needed help^.  You think because you need help that everyone does.  No, I don't!  Look at someone else with mixed race and help them instead!  Instead, you have all these full blacks and people flown in from Vietnam or Taiwan.  Famous kids who don't know what they're doing.  Putting on quite a spectacle of a show in retrospect to what you claim to uphold to.  You don't talk about mixed people who need help.  You just use me to ruin.  So, what, can't admit you're like a biracial and can be put in the same clump as everyone else?  I'm sorry if this offends you, but I'm working on being nicer..  Instead of just blowing up.  You know, I hit my table twice today but not too hard and sorta on a whim.  I also just realized I thought of something violent.  I closed the door hard 2 times at least, as well.  I will say an Our Father, Hail Mary, and Glory Be.  What can I do about it now?  Just think it was bad and learn to not have a temper.  They wouldn't give me medicine for it!  I have it for depression and schizophrenia and was doing fine.