Thursday, July 31, 2014
What now?
Are you on horseback? Trying to get me for being upset? This is shit. This is nothing. Get outta my life now!
I was upset in my room. What right do you have to kill off my family like this? Someone did something to me, and no one cares how I feel. I didn't do anything illegal. I just felt like I needed something to hit and scream. I did it in my room so no one could know what I needed to do. I still feel mad. I didn't do anything. Get outta my life.
I was upset in my room. What right do you have to kill off my family like this? Someone did something to me, and no one cares how I feel. I didn't do anything illegal. I just felt like I needed something to hit and scream. I did it in my room so no one could know what I needed to do. I still feel mad. I didn't do anything. Get outta my life.
When I say
Old, I mean older, not elderly old. I mean big and pompous.. and I don't consider fat a replacement for something good. We were gonna have a family turkey, too.
Wednesday, July 30, 2014
How Disgusting
My parents, 1st dad, used their hand|s to place something over my ******* symbolically.
They want to reiterate I am trash like other people act now.
You don't do this to Bella Thorne.
I can see them rolling around in happy m***********.
They want to reiterate I am trash like other people act now.
You don't do this to Bella Thorne.
I can see them rolling around in happy m***********.
Tuesday, July 29, 2014
Monday, July 28, 2014
Sunday, July 27, 2014
I'm watching about animals
that live together of different species, and I'm about to get a hamster for my beta fish. Coming up is like lions taking care of prey species baby animals.
Let's just say
Ellen is just mean to me and lies about who I am. Why do I keep getting other people's who I know have contact with her's nonsense? I say I don't like it, and then I just keep getting "more." Like, if I get a little mad she has to make me feel worse. What about her? She seems happy. My life was fine in ways until she did this. People are trying to be suggestive and knowing of me. Like, it's not just, "I don't like Christina," it's like let's dig in and do any possible mean thing we can to her and sorta in a backhanded manner so that no one ever really cares to talk to her.
Saturday, July 26, 2014
Problem
They are making me think of my Gramma. I was thinking if I was rich from my singing or if I got in a movie, I could give her money 1st, and Ellen would find that a topic for talking, stuck up. She is pessimistic. Also, they think it's important my dad just answered my text as I finished this or something.
My Gramma seems to feel bad. Why can't anyone like .. like the people she knew were mean to her and died I think .. cuza that N word thing with my dad.
She was mean to me, though. I feel sorry for her and wanna help, though, cuz she's like lonelier and doesn't even seem as content as she could. I don't wanna complain about older people in general, but they were acting this out to me. Like, the part when she's mean. I am careful there, but they are now out to get me. Thanks to my dad. You said Tim Burton wasn't to blame?
My Gramma seems to feel bad. Why can't anyone like .. like the people she knew were mean to her and died I think .. cuza that N word thing with my dad.
She was mean to me, though. I feel sorry for her and wanna help, though, cuz she's like lonelier and doesn't even seem as content as she could. I don't wanna complain about older people in general, but they were acting this out to me. Like, the part when she's mean. I am careful there, but they are now out to get me. Thanks to my dad. You said Tim Burton wasn't to blame?
Problem
They keep doing stuff, they did something weird to a post I got in my mail, and the 2nd time I clicked it said it was read, and it said it was like family, someone black because of being black but also who is being wacky. What about white people? I never get to be with white people. Like before!
YUP
Ellen gaped at me when she thought up me feeling love from my mom when she's the 1 who's hurt. Yup. She's involved in my family. No lie. She is judging me with race, but I deny that. Your mom thinks I'm fine. You're the 1 who apparently ^needed help^. You think because you need help that everyone does. No, I don't! Look at someone else with mixed race and help them instead! Instead, you have all these full blacks and people flown in from Vietnam or Taiwan. Famous kids who don't know what they're doing. Putting on quite a spectacle of a show in retrospect to what you claim to uphold to. You don't talk about mixed people who need help. You just use me to ruin. So, what, can't admit you're like a biracial and can be put in the same clump as everyone else? I'm sorry if this offends you, but I'm working on being nicer.. Instead of just blowing up. You know, I hit my table twice today but not too hard and sorta on a whim. I also just realized I thought of something violent. I closed the door hard 2 times at least, as well. I will say an Our Father, Hail Mary, and Glory Be. What can I do about it now? Just think it was bad and learn to not have a temper. They wouldn't give me medicine for it! I have it for depression and schizophrenia and was doing fine.
I've counted
numerous things that Ellen could have got off the shelf, my fav liverwurst no longer served, etc.
I didn't mean anything..
..bad against anyone but that I felt bothered. I don't like people to collect my "mistakes" from the past. Why can't you just talk about it?
MY DAD IS BOTHERING ME
HE WAS TOLD I WAS PLAYIING WITH THE MOUSE AND LOADING THINGS ON THE COMPUTER ALL INTO HIMSELF LIKE "I'VE NEVER SEEN ANYTHING LIKE THAT" WELL GO AWAY!!
Problem
I got secret messages of disrespect to my mom, showing my Gramma showing her toenail like my teacher did all tacky, when something was about her and she was being nice to me though hurt, like I didn't deserve her being comforting to me. Ellen will just slide up and say she's sad and not admit to what she and someone else has done.
How Annoying
They are playing with the number of seconds since last post. It symbolizes Ellen hypnotizing a boy from England like it's all ticklish but dehumanizing.
Friday, July 25, 2014
Bothered
I just went for a jog, and my iPodTouch when I touch the screen won't show me the song that's playing. I was able to do it by pressing the on|off button.
I came home and didn't sound happy, and my dad said, "Good."
I know Ellen did this, but my brother was sending me mean secret messages so I thought the violence out in my head 1st only to be bothered again by|for it. I did come home and actually try to fix it, but it's not like I'm gonna really commit a crime. I didn't think of it as I would. You don't care if anyone bothers me. You're a sinner. Did you know sinners go to Hell? I guess your faith is not based in the Jewish religion. I can see that. Was I really sinning? No. Was it the best thing I could do? Of course not. That's all that matters. If someone didn't do anything to you, is it wrong to not have self-control? Yes, it is wrong not to have self-control. You let other people get away with it cuz you think I'm not white. Well, that's not true. It's too bad you don't accept it.
I came home and didn't sound happy, and my dad said, "Good."
I know Ellen did this, but my brother was sending me mean secret messages so I thought the violence out in my head 1st only to be bothered again by|for it. I did come home and actually try to fix it, but it's not like I'm gonna really commit a crime. I didn't think of it as I would. You don't care if anyone bothers me. You're a sinner. Did you know sinners go to Hell? I guess your faith is not based in the Jewish religion. I can see that. Was I really sinning? No. Was it the best thing I could do? Of course not. That's all that matters. If someone didn't do anything to you, is it wrong to not have self-control? Yes, it is wrong not to have self-control. You let other people get away with it cuz you think I'm not white. Well, that's not true. It's too bad you don't accept it.
Thursday, July 24, 2014
He won't stop.
He's acting like blowing up my son and like my daughter can't write. Like something breaking.
Watching You
I have to go to the bathroom but wanted to say I think you are being mean to me really on purpose, sometimes, not just like wandering around. I made my post about reading the Bible for forgiveness, and the page took a certain while to load.
Problem
My brother kept eluding to Ellen DeGeneres, so I was kicking in the car some cuz he was annoying and then he asked me what was wrong and said he didn't like my tone.
I couldn't help to avoid that but to imagine violence. I finally stopped, but he's been sending secret threats, like about my future kids not mattering. Something is wrong with him. Seems like my oldest aunt got into him.
I made some loud noises. I was upset at people when we got our ice cream. Luckily, we have some cake which will make me happy.
They just made the words space or enter fast to annoy me. These tacky people watching me!
I couldn't help to avoid that but to imagine violence. I finally stopped, but he's been sending secret threats, like about my future kids not mattering. Something is wrong with him. Seems like my oldest aunt got into him.
I made some loud noises. I was upset at people when we got our ice cream. Luckily, we have some cake which will make me happy.
They just made the words space or enter fast to annoy me. These tacky people watching me!
I TOLD YOU TO STOP STOP CHANING MY LIFE
CAN'T YOU TELL WHAT I TOLD YOU STOP IT
YOURE MAKING ME PHYSICAL
YOURE MAKING ME PHYSICAL
Problems
Why should I care about what others do? This guy online posted something about pulling over 200 teeth from a boy, just playing it safe but hurting me. What is Johnny Depp's problem? Does he feel guilty? He never was there for me really. Is it my dad again cuz I won't let things like this happen with everyone I like?
These people are acting like they're touching me! STOP.
Why should I care? I think he's mean.
These people are acting like they're touching me! STOP.
Why should I care? I think he's mean.
They won't shut up.
They want my Gramma in a messed up way to be the sole mom of my daughter, I think.
Wednesday, July 23, 2014
They keep bothering me
STOP IT I KNOW ELLEN DID IT IT STARTED WITH HER
I imagined my dad innocent like I liked him and they kept making these weird noises that hinted a kind of m***********.
You're just
wanting me to be miserable and seeing how I feel and what I say then just to turn my down like you're better and no one desires me but I others.
There's something else I don't like.
I said that we can't get rid of Bella Thorne. I didn't blame him.
How retarded
Try to give me cancer for Bella Thorne? Is this the real Nell Burton? You just wanna prove yourself to the world and don't care about me and my existence.
I AM NOT TO BE TREATED WORSE FOR TIM BURTON'S PRESENCE.
I AM NOT TO BE TREATED WORSE FOR TIM BURTON'S PRESENCE.
Why should I even care?
@aparnapkin I'll trade you for your cherry tomatoes
— josh groban (@joshgroban) July 23, 2014
He wants me to just starve.. This is retarded.
You even think
when I didn't talk about that I implied it and went wild against me. Too bad you don't have intelligent followers.
Tuesday, July 22, 2014
IF YOU ALL WANT SOMETHING
WHY DON'T YOU ALL GET IT? Oh, don't like all caps, too? That's so overrated? I don't wanna waste my time for nothing.
No I don't
wanna sit here and pull things apart on someone's Twitter each time I try to understand what's going on. No one cares about what I say. This person is posting whimpy little things day in and day out. Come on, is that all you gonna do? What happened to before? This is so stupid I can't even post it on my real blog!
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