Fine

If you like her that's fine but you don't.

Why

is "that" Ellen attacking me?!

If you are following me

sorry if you catch hints of "sarcasm" but you always post like that.  I didn't want to suggest that of anyone.

You know you are a lot like her racially..

..so go play.  Really.  Don't just whine about it to me!

The thing is..

..I like other people getting attention.  This is something else.  This is telling me I'm not what I was cracked up to be..

Sad

I don't care about that girl, but what if she's the reason Mannipat Malloy went home early?

I was attracted to her as a fan.

I even asked

just admit if you like her already.

I was nice to her.

She can't be bumped above me.

Strange

Why is she ever better than me?  It used to be no.

So

So, what, Ellen

Bella Thorne is Ellen DeGeneres?

What?

Why does she matter?  (If you don't know what I mean, it seems no one else does!  There, that's something some of you will take.)

So, what?

Let's just say he's shy and uses her as an excuse.

There's a lotta people in this world.

Think twice

about what I say.  It's not really offensive.  I have a thing where when I speak I mean it, I'm not trying to be extra sarcastic or anything NOR AT ALL OF COURSE.

So

Bella is being pleasured more than other people, and I'm being made to feel bad for no reason.

It's just not fun in the end.

Bella gets mad at me if I have a good time with someone yet always protrudes her deep side onto you.

So

I'd like to take back what I said, but I reached a point on Twitter where it came out so I put it all on here.

Anyone know what went wrong then?

Ellen got mad at me this week for not interpreting a post with Bella included to punish me.  I find it rather humiliating and dishonest.  I want to know more.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Re: What movies/TV shows are you all watching tonight?

Do you like Josh Groban? I do. I watched him host Rising Star. I'm a lucky girl.. I just posted some things that came up on Twitter on my 2nd blog. Things from the people there. You know the 1/2 Viet girl I like didn't win on the Mideastern part of the country tonight. I don't know what triggered me to talk about that after watching now, but lotta things being thrown at me. I guess I am just stating things and thinking out loud. You know, it seems like everyone's turned on me because of Ellen.

Now I Shit My Shit List

A few errors.. as for talking about it, nothing wrong with that.

So who was it then?

How can 1 get so infatuated

if I said someone was being disgusting?  Who cares how I said it, I can't always say things right the 1st time without writing it out.

You can't say

she's hotter than me then.  I'll have to fix this for my real blog.  I realize it's still online and I could delete it, but sometimes words like fat and attractive just come out..

Problem

I feel ignored because of her.  Why talk to ya'll?  Imma fight cuz you made everyone turn on me.

Sorry

I couldn't fix my writing.  What I mean is I looked more like a movie star I guess and she didn't but still was and now I don't though I've been trying to be 1..

So

I'm not talking to who you think I'd be when I say this.

Well

I brought it up on Twitter.  I am disgusted.  What can I say?  She just posted a suggestive picture that threatens my identity.  It's someone caringly feeding at a set sat at table.  You can at least notice I labeled this post shit.  I have to get my feelings out.  Why would you in the 1st place?  I know she's not just being nice.  Ya'll did that to my freedom of speech.  I was [more suited to be an actor] than her when she was an actor, and I haven't achieved cuza RACISM as an adult and now seem like the fat, ugly, sick 1.

I mean..

..if it's about her, where'd she go?  What are we supposed to do?  You can't monitor my privacy of thought.

Weird

Why keep telling me Bella Thorne is better than me, like teasing me?  That's not what I meant to say.  I can't think of how to say it.  I think you already know.  Everything was better before this replacing me came along.  Now I feel I'm in the dirt..

So, I said it cuz it was important I not hold back cuz something could happen to someone if I did it feels, that's all.  I'm naming Ellen cuz she started it.  Actually, I think it was a collective decision that she steal the, like, ideas I earned.  Like, I posted online, I did well in school, I'm nice to people.  Ya'll're crazy!  I just couldn't stand the noises in my room.  They've even been made to make me feel suicidal when I heard things in my ear.  Not really, but it was like I felt like I had to kill myself but knew it'd go away maybe.  I could always ask for help hopefully.  Perhaps, I wasn't all as great as made out to be then but they got in the way of any opportunity because of like age and time and money and people.

Bad and Bossy

Ya'll are mean to me and got nothing to say to me.

I can tell..

Ellen is sensitive to if I don't want Bella to be used as a model of something better than me.  Ellen supposedly wasn't using her as a punishment.  She won't say.  She thinks me complaining caused this.  I don't want this to affect how I talk to everyone.

So..

..they outvoted someone supposedly because I was hitting my sofa this week mad at people being mean to me.  They won't stop trying to stimulate me..  I've contacted help lines.  I want it to stop.  I want real love.

For whatever reasons..

..my Vine does not work.

Problem

They keep trying to stimulate me by being mean.

Apology

Sorry for m***********.  D:

Apology

I should be more professional or presentable.

I was also supposed to not talk @ Ellen like that.

I just went out and said hi

to my Gramma and aunt and got some ice, too.  Apparently, my brother also has things to do.  I might go back out later.  I feel sugar hyped.  A bit tired.  Wanna visit, but seems I wouldn't fit in.

Who cares about

Nell Burton and now my babies won't matter??

Putting Ideas in My Head

They are being gross and said I'll never put my "babe" away.  It sounds unattractive.  These are criminals..

They also are pretending to capture

my future son.

Why ARE you playing around

like my daughter is the result of something I started with you

MY DAD WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE

Why am I sitting here

having my dad's thoughts go through my mind?  When will that *beep* leave me alone?

Why is

Ellen trying to stimulate me and monitor me?  She can't monitor me.

Problem

My dad acted like he wasn't "gahnna stap!" (Gonna stop.) I came out, and he was mosying around the kitchen and started vaccuuming when I came out of the bathroom. I was walking funny when he was being suggestive to me in the car after the movie this weekend. Why doesn't he just get outta my life like that? I don't need him. He doesn't do things for me.

Yer just wasting my time.  I'm not being mean, but you think that.

A little insistent?

Think you can delete a major poster, too?

Problem

They won't stop doing stuff for Ellen.  Someone changed their name who might not post as much.

I was upset..

..but now I'm upset at the person behind the puppets.

Problem

These GODDAMN blacks won't stop acting like they're my race.

Problem

Also, there's a black poster following me.  She's trying to be seductive.

Disgusting

Another poster I liked supposedly was convinced to delete by someone who probably works for Tim Burton secretly because of Ellen DeGeneres.  It's not funny.  I can get mad and not have you all blow up.  You shouldn't be monitoring stupid things like that.  And quit acting like I'm not an adult.  Yer all just old.  And I'm right, you're wrong.

Problem

Some middle videos are white.

It reminded me of something.

Problem

I got a note I left something in my Wal-Mart shopping cart.  I didn't!

Problem

My p****** is irritating me.  On Twitter, they made it so 5 Tweets were there, and it made me think of when my dad put his hand on it when I was an infant.  I don't like my dad like that!  When I went to click there were 6 and 1 in the Celebrity list, which I follow.

They think

I'm mad about touching kids, but I don't have problems about kids.  Someone must have lost their mind.  True, I was hitting my stuff in my room, but kids today are much worse.  They whine all the time.  Still, it might not be all their own fault.

What can I do now?

At least no one was in the room.

I contacted for help, but once they seemed to cause it.

What's SO bad about it?

Can't I ever have my life?  What did you not really do to prevent it?  You are sitting heer arousing me with little ticks.  What am I supposed to do?  I feel you're in my face staring at me.

Does it even matter

why to you?  Or do I just have to put up with your bickering, cuz no one else does this?  I don't believe in this.  This is just you being racist.  This is mean.  You made me mad and didn't wanna help make me feel better, not by massaging me but by talking to me or something.  You had nothing to say.

My mom said she threw away my passwords.

in garbage bags in the storage room.

LEAVE ME ALONE

I SAID I WAS MAD  STOP GETTING AT MNE

Ellen [deleted]   [things she did gave me or what it seemed she did gave me] A life of shit here.,  SHe won
t stop  That's it.

Post

I'm worried

I had a breakout, I felt aroused by my dad, how dumb.

Did the dishes.. a bit rough at times, nothing too "weird"

In my room hit my sofa and screamed..

Had punched.

I'm not a bad >person<

Frustrated

How my dad feels about my mom having cancer.  People wanna give it to me to arouse me.  See ya'll're wrong and such.

Weird

My dad was testing me, I didn't mean what I didn't mean.  I am an adult, and ya'll're gonna d**.

What is the real problem?

You keep going psycho if I get mad at other people being mean to me.  They need to be put in their place.  My dad can't be onto me.  I am not always gonna be living with him.

Problem

They are sending me messages of fortitude.

Stop

Get that person outta my face..

Yer not funny, and  yer laughing.

Old Posts

Crazy

Why'd I say that?  I was making a point.

Problem

They won't stop getting the last word in.  Sounds like Ellen, who's all comfortable and in good health.

Yer crazy.

Still mad?  (The person doing the experiment.)  I got you!  You did something wrong.

Problem

I hate to actually post this, by my aunt is onto me and wondering about her husband and "people in the area."  So, I just told her she was bothering me before, which she jerked the car all the time.  How immature!  That lady is not a part of my, like, everyday life.  She is at me.  I threw and hit things in my room or something.  How would she be so aware?  That's crazy, my dad made me mad.  No one else was supposed to know.  I did post it on my blog but maybe not.

I'm serious.

My dad won't refrain from being rude.

I went to get ice, and he started rubbing his hand and said like "whoop."  Also said hi.

Would you so like

to have yourself feel that way while you're trying to finish your singing?

Report - You can't block me.

Why do I feel m******* by my dad?

Problem

My older aunt doesn't get she's not my world.  You should had yer own kid.

Stupid

I don't want to be m***********.

Who the ****

messed up my reputation, supposedly?

If you don't stop saying I'm like my dad

You will be sentenced to your life in prison or worse.

Ya'll're liars.

Stop stimulating me.

I am not feeling well..

I do not want disgusting people onto me ***-wise.

So why is everyone ending up giving me

p********** messages?  For God's sake, I'm hiding in my room.

There's something I can't deal with.

They are playing around like it's a game to call any future kids a nigger and then said I did something cuz I was mad.

So..

..My dad did something again.

Anyone who restrains me from socializing is not worth it.

It's not okay that I don't feel okay, how dumb to wonder what's wrong, why I feel violent like I'm getting *** signals.  I was told something totally radical secretly.

What now?

Are you on horseback?  Trying to get me for being upset?  This is shit.  This is nothing.  Get outta my life now!

I was upset in my room.  What right do you have to kill off my family like this?  Someone did something to me, and no one cares how I feel.  I didn't do anything illegal.  I just felt like I needed something to hit and scream.  I did it in my room so no one could know what I needed to do.  I still feel mad.  I didn't do anything.  Get outta my life.

When I say

Old, I mean older, not elderly old.  I mean big and pompous.. and I don't consider fat a replacement for something good.  We were gonna have a family turkey, too.

Problem

Get my dad, they won't stop trying to stimulate a certain part for getting mad in my room.  I don't want my old aunt.

This is a blog where I get out what I need, even though language gets in the way, and anger.

Problem

Because my dad knew I was mad I think my aunt is coming for 4 days.  They are pretending it is for another reason.

How Disgusting

My parents, 1st dad, used their hand|s to place something over my ******* symbolically.

They want to reiterate I am trash like other people act now.

You don't do this to Bella Thorne.

I can see them rolling around in happy m***********.

I meant it

as in why is it you hurt me but leave her be?

Fine

Why don't you hurt Ellen?

THEY SAID 2 YEARS

THEY WON'T GO AWAY

Problem

Ellen, she keeps having glitches on my computer throughout the day to stimulate me.

This is serious..

..I can't keep serving people by telling what they do to me.  Let's just get him.

YOU CAN'T JUST THROW MY LIFE AWAY

I STAYED AWAY FROM HIM FOR MY SUPPER

STOP IT

I CAN STOMP MY FOOT AND NOT BE KILLED

My dad started it.  I found out.  And you better listen you racist.

Problem

My dad keeps getting at me.  He's insane.

My dad turned off a private part.

Problem

I feel bothered.  Irritated physically.

Problem

My dad has the ^need^ to arrange my private parts to my Gramma's toenails.

Problem

My dad came in and my part is too stimulated, like heated up but doesn't feel as it should.

Problem

My blog is loading slowly.  I played with my mouse on it before.  People are fakely breaking all my technology, stealing my socks and toenail pullers (clippers.)